Julio Alexi Genao Quotes & Sayings

My skin hungered for you. You were warm, and alive, and in my bed, and I wanted you so bad I could feel the ripple of need on the pads of my fingertips, on the palms of my hands, on the skin of my back, at the base of my cock, inside my ass
I wanted the taste of you in my mouth. — Julio Alexi Genao

You don't get to choose who turns you into a maniac.
They just do, and you're just fucked, and the rest is just damage control. — Julio Alexi Genao

It's like a - like a video panel, you know that? Your face. I don't think you realize how much of what happens inside you that can be seen in your face.
Maybe it was just me. I paid attention to you. — Julio Alexi Genao

You're safe, here."
"But you are not," you whispered. "Not ever. I forget. I forget and then I'll - I could kill you."
When I didn't reply, you dropped your head again.
I almost missed it when you murmured, "I always kill them, in the end. — Julio Alexi Genao

You were the monster, but all I could see was the boy. — Julio Alexi Genao

I'd removed all but my underclothes, that night I took you home. Took off all the drab corporate synthetics as if stripping my armor to uncover the vulnerable man I was underneath it.
The man who needed to be near you.
I'd pressed my back into your solid length, eyes wet as I fell asleep.
That's why I was calm. — Julio Alexi Genao

All the enormous machines that keep full Citizens comfortable far above us in their glittering towers, all the infrastructure of power, of fuel, of commerce and industry - all of it happens below. Made possible with our hands. With our bodies.
With our lives.
I would have done anything to escape.
I got my chance. I made it out - but the price was loneliness. — Julio Alexi Genao

The second day, I watched you suffer through one of your nightmares, but this one was worse than I'd seen before.
You called out another man's name. — Julio Alexi Genao

Don't tell me not to drink. not to smoke. not to grieve.
if i speak of these things it's because i have to
but i am not speaking to you. — Julio Alexi Genao

You won't remember me. You won't need me anymore.
You will leave me again.
I forgive you. I forgave you. I will always forgive you.
You should know that for a little while, you were not alone.Not alone.
I loved you when you were pixels on a screen. — Julio Alexi Genao

If my life were like the novels, this would be the dark period in act two after my one true love rejects me, where I reel off to do things I have to apologize for in act three. — Julio Alexi Genao

I watched you roll off me and step away from the bed in silence, but when the heat of your body was gone, I wanted it back. — Julio Alexi Genao

But it turns out Joy is a house built from the same bricks as Sorrow. Pleasure is a poem, and it uses the same words as Pain. — Julio Alexi Genao

Not your distress. Never that. I loved - I loved being there. Next to you. The pile of limbs that was Us. Together in the same bed. Even if it meant waking up with a few new bruises. — Julio Alexi Genao

Undertown. You maybe don't remember it. Your clothes don't smell of it. Of the filth, the rot. The stinking hell of vapor and grime. The warren of hovels and the millions of us starving in them, defending whatever pathetic collection of things we call 'ours' - sometimes to the death, yet still doing little more than waiting to die. — Julio Alexi Genao

That's why I was calm. When you woke me in the middle of the night with your hand around my throat, and I thought I was going to die for bringing you home - that I had given my life to lie down next to a murderer - that's why I was calm.
Because all I was thinking in that moment was that it was worth it. — Julio Alexi Genao

I know you've forgotten me, but I'll remember you as long as I live. — Julio Alexi Genao

I drink too much. I smoke too much. I eat like a college student, and I don't exercise enough. I do drugs and I give my love to boys who hate me a little bit and I don't always wash my hands after I clean the litterbox. But I'm absolutely certain the thing that will one day stop my heart for good is the inchoate rage I feel when I read over something I've published and discover a typo. — Julio Alexi Genao

So. Monday. We meet again.
We will never be friends - but maybe we can move past our mutual enmity toward a more-positive partnership. — Julio Alexi Genao

I was asked a series of questions.
What did you see? Why are there no files in the video archives? How did the assassin escape?
I lied every time. — Julio Alexi Genao

Love is blind.

Also: deaf, dumb, and on fire. — Julio Alexi Genao

The only good Monday is an Almost-Tuesday. — Julio Alexi Genao

You should know that for a little while, you were not alone.
Not alone. — Julio Alexi Genao

This world is larger than your heart
still larger than your pain
but know this:
everything ends
so let what remains of us all
be love. — Julio Alexi Genao

I couldn't make myself move from the bed. To reach for you. I'd known this moment was coming, and now that it had arrived I found I had no strength in my limbs.
Only my voice. Only words.
Asking you to stay. — Julio Alexi Genao

I gave you all my secrets, and you lost them all. You lost a lot of things.
But the treasure of it was in the giving, not the keeping. — Julio Alexi Genao

I didn't know what to do.
I knew what I wanted to do. I knew what I was supposed to do.
But I didn't know what I was going to do. — Julio Alexi Genao

I loved you even when you forgot me.
And - for a little while - you loved me back. — Julio Alexi Genao

Fuck that person. Fuck them in the face.
With a cabbage. — Julio Alexi Genao

They'd come for you, and this time they'd come with weapons.
I was afraid of that. For you. But not of you.
Never afraid of you. — Julio Alexi Genao

The best sci-fi stories use the fantastical to remind us of the reality of who we are today, the hope of who we may become tomorrow, and the shame of who we were yesterday. — Julio Alexi Genao

What it is
is the memory of a dance
a song you heard long ago
to hear it is to be young again
and for once
for once you are happy — Julio Alexi Genao

People say life is short.
life's not short - it's long.
the memory of a human being: that's what's short. — Julio Alexi Genao

The outside of you had peeled away, and I could see your insides as clear as my own hand in my lap, aching to reach for you. — Julio Alexi Genao

The only thing worse than a bigot is an "ally" who can't stop congratulating themselves on their enlightenment. — Julio Alexi Genao

You let me set the water in the shower, and followed me into the booth to stand there with me under the warm spray. You kept your head down, not looking me in the eyes - though if you were shy, I couldn't tell. You had no reason to be. You know what you look like.
I know you don't remember what we did.
I want to tell you. — Julio Alexi Genao

Things end. Everything ends. But for a few days in a city full of hunger, and avarice, and alienation - in this fucked-up mess of a life spent wandering in the dark without a hand to hold on to - I was not alone. And neither were you. — Julio Alexi Genao

I wanted to take your hand into mine and kiss it.
I never dared. — Julio Alexi Genao

I'm nothing, here. A lowly surveillance analyst. Being the hero could have meant something good for me. Could have changed my whole life.
I could have done it. I should have done it.
I sat there and I thought about you, instead. — Julio Alexi Genao

What really matters?
people. always people.
protect yourself from people. but love some of them, also.
because that's all there is. — Julio Alexi Genao

You are going to die
everyone you ever knew
will die
be kind, and be true - and be fearless of what makes your private parts go boom — Julio Alexi Genao