C.J. Roberts Quotes & Sayings

I wish I could trust you, Reed, but I know I can't."
His brow furrows in confusion, but there is a wry tilt to his lips, "Why?"
I give him a small smile of my own, "You think you're different from men like Caleb. You see everything in black and white, you don't care about the whole story; you don't care about the gray. Some stories aren't black and white, Agent Reed. — C.J. Roberts

People often believed they were safer in the light, thinking monsters only came out at night. — C.J. Roberts

I wanted a fight. I needed a fight. I was sick and tired of playing nice. I AM NOT NICE. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Sometimes it was vanilla ... and he liked that too — C.J. Roberts

Why couldn't he just keep being an evil, soulless bastard so I knew what his role was and I knew mine? — C.J. Roberts

Let a bitch enjoy her mental breakdown in peace. — C.J. Roberts

A million dollars? A bit much don't you think?"
"Fuck you."
Caleb smiled, the self indulgent little shit. "My apologies," he mocked with a slight forward bow, "What I meant to say is: no pussy's that good. Though yours does come close. — C.J. Roberts

I'm done being the damsel in distress. I don't need anyone to save me. — C.J. Roberts

Yeah, but I'm the second most fucked up person I know, and when you put two negatives together, you get a positive. That's math, Caleb. Math is the language of the universe. You can't argue with the universe. — C.J. Roberts

I told him I was sorry. He sighed and held me closer, his lips against the shell of my ear, "You will be, Kitten". — C.J. Roberts

Anger rose like bile within his chest. It was her. Ever since he had laid eyes on her she had caused him nothing but confusion and conflict. He had allowed himself to feel ... something. And she had repaid him by pointing his own gun at his face. His fingers touched upon the left side of his face. It still stung, in more ways than one. He pushed at his cheek, wanting to feel the tight, itchy burn just beneath the surface. He should find her. Bring her back. Take control of her and, in the process, himself. Is that the only reason you want her back? He thought of her soft supple body pressed against his, her arms wrapped around his midsection.
He'd let her go, he'd done it through his own stupidity, but he'd let her go. And all he could think about was that she hadn't even looked back. She'd just run away ... from him. — C.J. Roberts

My mind id more problem/solution orientated. Mad at me? Scream at me. Punch me if you're up for it. Please don't smile at me sweetly, act like nothing is wrong and then leave me disillusioned. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Because she's going to help you understand something. I'm not yours to taunt. Don't think I haven't noticed the way you try to manipulate me. I invented that game. — C.J. Roberts

If you've ever stood in the presence of a Lamborghini Gallardo Superleggera and not gotten a tingly sensation in your naughty bits, you have to be very young, very old, or completely fucking blind. — C.J. Roberts

Once upon a time I saved Livvie. She's been saving me ever since. — C.J. Roberts

You're the coward, Caleb. Im not afraid to tell you how I feel. I'm not afraid to admit, that despite everything you've done to me, I love you. — C.J. Roberts

If I had thought grovelling would get Livvie into my car, I would have made a good show of it. I'm shameless. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Misery I understand. Happiness is terrifying. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Thank you," Livvie muttered from the passenger seat.
"For what?" Caleb was still irritated. "For saving my life. Even if you're just going to put it in danger again," she whispered. — C.J. Roberts

Easy, Caleb. Don't break her. Win her. — C.J. Roberts

You're worse than those bikers," she spat, her body tense and coiling, ready to attack. "At least they knew they were monsters. You're pathetic! You're a monster who imagines he's something else. — C.J. Roberts

Love made me weak. I wished it would go away. Instead, it crushed me under its heel. I let Levvie push me back onto the bed. And when I heard her turn away, love made me beg.
"Please don't go. Don't leave me."
-Caleb — C.J. Roberts

James never met anyone named Livvie. He never hurt her. — C.J. Roberts

Caleb fed me better food during my kidnapping than these people. I laugh at my own joke — C.J. Roberts

my mane is Kitten and my master us gone. — C.J. Roberts

I think we spent close to thirty Euros pumping change into a game called Area 51. If the earth is ever attacked by aliens, you're welcome to stand behind me. — C.J. Roberts

Each day I was more vulnerable than the last. Each day he stripped away more of my sense of self. And now he'd taken the last of it, the last of me. But who did that make me? An extension of him? Someone new? I didn't know. Didn't want to know. — C.J. Roberts

I had a weapon of my own and I wasn't afraid to fucking use it. And if I died? Who the fuck cared? I put the gun to my head and demanded to be let through. The fucktards shot me. — C.J. Roberts

That you could fix me? What's more, that I could fix you? Well, Sorry, pet, I don't want to be fixed. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

I've heard it said, time heals all wounds, but if a dream can pull you so deeply into your past you can't remember the present, I'm not sure my wounds will ever heal. — C.J. Roberts

If you're sighing with contentment, you're either one sick fuck or you don't grasp the seriousness of the situation. While I no longer kill, I am a killer. A killer in love is a very dangerous thing. — C.J. Roberts

She comes off as very empathetic, and even a little vulnerable herself, but she wouldn't be where she is today if she weren't a wolf under that wool suit. — C.J. Roberts

No more movie references. No more fictional characters to relate to. This was real. It was destiny. I was ... a thing, a commodity. — C.J. Roberts

My heart, independent of my logic, had reserved a place for my tormentor and my solace. — C.J. Roberts

Her words, her presence, and her pain, affected him. He hated it. His memories, the ones he worked so hard to push deep into forgotten recesses of his mind, banged on the door of his consciousness. They connected with Livvie, they connected to her suffering, and together, they threatened to undo him. — C.J. Roberts

I was never your slave, Caleb. You tried, I'll give you that, but we both know you belong to me as much as I belong to you. If you'd really been able to break me down and build me back up, neither of us would be here. No matter how fucked up the circumstances, I genuinely fell in love with you ... and ... and believe it or not ... you love me too. — C.J. Roberts

In the dark, my master let down his guard and he was Caleb again. He didn't correct me. He didn't punish me. He didn't push me away emotionally. Caleb was there to hold me until the nightmares passed. He was there to tell me I was beautiful. He was there to tell me I was going to be okay. In the dark, he seduced me. I didn't want the seduction to end. — C.J. Roberts

When the man you love asks you to go with him - you go. — C.J. Roberts

Today the pain was emotional, the worst kind — C.J. Roberts

I don't know. I have no idea who I'm supposed to be anymore. I only know I don't want to be who someone else thinks I should be. — C.J. Roberts

Thinking about Caleb hurts, but trying to move beyond my love for him, hurts more. There's no getting past the pain. There is only a different brand of pain available for my eager consumption. — C.J. Roberts

I was not crying - eyes water. I think we all know I'm a badass and I don't cry. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

- What are you doing?
- I was curious
- About what?
- If happy tears taste the same as the sad ones.
- And?
- I think they're sweeter, but it could just be your face — C.J. Roberts

I blinked once, "if it's anywhere near as bad as what those assholes did to me... I'm tired of living through this shit just to step into deeper fucking shit. So if all you have planned for me is more torture, I think I'd rather die. Just do me one favor and don't... I don't want to die slow. — C.J. Roberts

I'll show you a fag, you little bitch. I'll fuck-start your head! — C.J. Roberts

As I walked, I could feel his eyes on me, the way I could always feel his eyes on me. Tears ran down my face unabashed, but I didn't move to wipe them away. I had earned those tears, and I would wear them as a symbol of everything I had been through. They represented all the pain I had suffered, the love I felt, and the ocean of loss sweeping through my soul. I had finally learned to obey and never looked back. — C.J. Roberts

There isn't a permanent mark on me, Reed, not one. And you don't know how many times he was there to hold me together when I was sure I was going to fall apart. He's a monster," she sobbed, "I know he is. I know, and ... it doesn't matter to me anymore. — C.J. Roberts

When I'm really frustrated with things," she giggles " ... I like to get online and change things in Wikipedia!"
This, bitch ... is weird. — C.J. Roberts

This is not a romance. Romances are filled with valiant men and simpering damsels in distress. Romances have heroes worthy of the title. They slay dragons and climb towers to rescue beautiful princesses they immediately marry and impregnate. Romances end with a happily ever after. This is not a romance. This is a love story. — C.J. Roberts

We'll take care of each other. I'm stronger now, Caleb. Whatever happens ... whatever happened, we can handle it together. Okay? — C.J. Roberts

My anger with him had grown as the hours had passed. I'd convinced myself when he came to get me i would really give him a piece of my mind. Of course - it's easy to be brave when the object of your fear isn't holding your sore nipples hostage. ~ Livvie — C.J. Roberts

Livvie's screams rent the air. James flinched at the sound, but Caleb's blood sang. I am both men. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

This isn't a romance. You're not a damsel in distress and I'm not the handsome prince come to save you. — C.J. Roberts

...monsters aren't born, they're made... — C.J. Roberts

For Caleb's kittens — C.J. Roberts

Some stories aren't black and white. — C.J. Roberts

What does a former kidnapper/murderer do in retirement? - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

you're entire life is going to change. you should try to accept that, because there's no possible way to avoid it. like it or not, fight it or don't, your old life is over. it was over long before you woke up here."
~caleb — C.J. Roberts

Everybody is fucked up and we are all freaks in our own ways-Agent Reed — C.J. Roberts

If you were a plant, you would be a thistle ~ Caleb — C.J. Roberts

She wanted me. She wanted to give herself to me. I felt unworthy to accept such a gift, but it didn't stop me from clutching it fiercely to my chest. — C.J. Roberts

When the initial pain of shock wore off, I thought it strange I should feel the pain of his slap in my chest, but I did, and it hurt more than I ever thought possible. — C.J. Roberts

His lips (mmmmm). His mouth is warm and he tasted like coffee and mints. Bit of an angry shit when you kiss him unexpectedly (ha!). — C.J. Roberts

I'm fucked in the head, too. Even before I met you. — C.J. Roberts

I've been doing this a long time- manipulating people to get my way. That's why you think you love me. Because I've broken you down and built you back up to believe it. It wasn't an accident. Once you leave this behind ... you'll see that. -Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Claudia! That's not for snacking, you bitch. Livvie spanked the other girl on the ass and both of them giggled.
Girls are so strange. If another man called me a bitch and spanked me, it would not end in giggles. — C.J. Roberts

I'm envious of the pigeon. It doesn't have a care in the world beyond eating, sleeping, and defecating on park statues. That's the life. — C.J. Roberts

I shut my eyes tightly, willing myself to go back to sleep. I want to go back to my dream, back to Caleb. I can't fucking breathe ! I can't breathe without him. I don't want to. — C.J. Roberts

I'd never considered myself socially retarded until that moment. — C.J. Roberts

What are you doing ?" She said and laughed.
"I was curious," he whispered.
"About what ?"
"If happy tears taste the same as the sad ones," he said. — C.J. Roberts

I wanted to say something, protest in some way, but then i felt the heat of him against the wetness i'd created, and i could've sworn i heard us sizzle. ~ Livvie — C.J. Roberts

She loves me. It's quite sick, isn't it? - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

I was insanely jealous."
"I know. It should make me happy, but it doesn't."
"Why ?"
"I'd rather make you happy, Caleb. I'd rather see you smile. — C.J. Roberts

I wanted to cry for wanting to cry. — C.J. Roberts

I know you deserve to be happy. I know you deserve someone ... better, but I'm selfish. I want you. I want you bad enough to try and be someone better. — C.J. Roberts

I guess ,you want revenge, Ruthless Me, whispered. You bet your sweet ass, I do. — C.J. Roberts

Would it be so horrible if I did nothing? Could I be held to blame? — C.J. Roberts

Promise me you won't leave." Livvie's arms gripped me tight.
"I promise. Can you say the same?" I almost dreaded the answer.
"I promise. I'm yours," she said.
"And I'm yours. — C.J. Roberts

I don't want revenge, Caleb. I don't want to end up like you, letting some fucking vendetta run my life. I just want my freedom. I want to be free, Caleb. Not someone's whore ... not even yours. — C.J. Roberts

I'm fucking good looking and sharp witted! I bet Reed only speaks one language. I'm sharp witted in five! - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

It wasn't the forgetting Caleb didn't like, it was the remembering — C.J. Roberts

Don't make me go back to trying to be someone I don't know how to be anymore. — C.J. Roberts

We're pretty far from perfect, Kitten. I'm the most fucked up person you know." "Yeah, but I'm the second most fucked up person I know, and when you put two negatives together, you get a positive. That's math, Caleb. Math is the language of the universe. You can't argue with the universe." Her grin was patently ridiculous. I love you so goddamn much. — C.J. Roberts

I wanted him to say nice things to me, maybe even hold me. Strange did not begin to define my mood. — C.J. Roberts

Will you cry? Will you miss me? — C.J. Roberts

Will you miss me Caleb?" I let my arm circle his waist. I don't know what prompted it and instantly I tried to pull away. He held me still.
"Yes, — C.J. Roberts

Some men don't eat pussy. I think those men are pussies. — C.J. Roberts

I miss the restraints. In a way, they allowed me the freedom to writhe and flail. They gave me something and someone to fight against. Without them ... I feel like a traitor. No longer a prisoner, I seem to be allowing them to keep me here. — C.J. Roberts

If I were a wolf, I would howl. If I were a lion, I would oar. If we lived in the jungle, I would bring her a lion and a wolf to feast on. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Under the damage, he could still see Kitten, surviving despite it all. — C.J. Roberts

When I met her, she told me I was adorable and was her boyfriend."
"And you became her boyfriend?" I gave him a look. He smiled.
"She was wearing a tight shirt and I could see her boobs."
I couldn't help but smile.
"You did the right thing."
"I know." He shrugged. — C.J. Roberts

He would forever be her captor and she would forever be his prisoner. — C.J. Roberts

You kidnapped me! You've humiliated me, beat me, nearly gotten me rapped, and just a moment ago you had me suck a complete stranger's dick in a room full of twisted perverts. I love you, but I'm not the coward, Caled. I deserve to live or die on my own fucking terms. — C.J. Roberts

Exactly, Kitten.Your pride isn't worth it. It's not worth the pain. It's not worth the torture I, or anyone else could put you through. It sure as fuck isn't worth your life. Be smart! Fight the battles you can win and accept the ones you can't. That's how you survive. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

You're the best boyfriend ever. You let me ride in elevators and everything."
"Laugh it up, Pet. It'll be hilarious when we get stuck and the smell of unclean tourist is invading your nostrils."
"Don't worry, Sexy. I'll protect you. — C.J. Roberts

It's an ember forever burning in my heart. It's a reminder Caleb will live forever. — C.J. Roberts

Oh yeah, Caleb thought, you're my bitch. Caleb's voice was sugar laced with arsenic — C.J. Roberts

I was prompted for a password. Why did she need a password? Didn't she trust me? I hope you're smiling, because I know I am. - Caleb — C.J. Roberts

Then you can have me all to yourself! You can keep me in your dark little room
and fuck me stupid. You can own me. it's what you want isn't it? — C.J. Roberts

It was worse
knowing he knew the difference between kindness and cruelty and chose the baser of the two. — C.J. Roberts