Ava Dellaira Quotes & Sayings

Because I think that by beauty, you don't just meaning something thats pretty. You mean something that makes us human. The urn, you say, is a 'friend to man'. It will live beyond its generation, and the next ones, and your poem is like that, too. You died almost two hundred years ago, when you were only twenty-five. But the words that you left are still alive — Ava Dellaira

How could she just leave me here to live without her? I miss her so much. I love her. I want her to grow up and become who she was meant to be. I wanted her to grow up with me. — Ava Dellaira

The line at the end that says, 'Nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands' makes perfect sense to me. It means they can go anywhere inside of you, because like the rain, like water, they find places that nothing solid could pass through. It explains the way that Sky gets into me, into places that I never knew were there. How he touches a part of me no one has ever touched. We both have secret places in us. — Ava Dellaira

Maybe that's what being in love is. You just keep filling up, never getting fuller, only brighter. — Ava Dellaira

It's a myth that grief makes you closer. — Ava Dellaira

You can see the city lights from there, spreading out below like stars on the ground. — Ava Dellaira

I can't describe how it felt, being there right then, so close together, on the edge between who we were and who we wanted to be. — Ava Dellaira

Laurel, you couldn't have saved your sister. But, love, you've got to save yourself. Do that for me, okay? Because you are worth it. — Ava Dellaira

The house felt haunted, like only I understood the way all of our shadows, the ones we'd left, had seeped into the wood and stained it. — Ava Dellaira

I want people to know me, but if anyone could look inside of me, if they saw that everything I feel is not what it's supposed to be, I don't know what would happen. — Ava Dellaira

I think a lot of people want to be someone, but we are scared that if we try, we won't be as good as everyone imagines we could be. — Ava Dellaira

You were still vulnerable, furious at everything and in love with it at once. — Ava Dellaira

I want to be cleansed--I want to burn away all of the bad memories and everything bad inside of me. And maybe that's what being in love does. So that a life, a person, a moment you need to keep, stays with you into infinity. May smiling back at me. The two of us as little girls at Fallfest, with parents who danced. Your song playing into eternity. The night leaves on the cottonwood trees catching the white lights. And every little star that burns hotter than we could know. — Ava Dellaira

People love you for what they want to see in you, not for what you are. That's a sad thing to learn. — Ava Dellaira

History repeats itself, you sang. I wonder if that's true. If there's a hurt
that's buried in us, maybe it keeps fi nding its way through. — Ava Dellaira

When parents talk about their pasts, the stories start to stick in your head. But the memories that you inherit look different from the now-world, and different from your own memories, too. Like they have a color all their own. I don't mean sepia-toned or something. My parents aren't even that old. I just mean that there is something particular about their glow. — Ava Dellaira

You remind me of my first concert. The one I told you about on New Year's. You remind me of the feeling of wanting to make something. — Ava Dellaira

Sometimes when we say things, we hear silence. Or only echoes. Like screaming from inside. And that's really lonely. But that only happens when we weren't really listening. It means we weren't ready to listen yet. Because every time we speak, there is a voice. There is the world that answers back. — Ava Dellaira

It was a world full of feelings that I didn't have words for yet. — Ava Dellaira

Thruth makes you more you. — Ava Dellaira

You can be noble and brave and beautiful and still find yourself falling. — Ava Dellaira

There was something between me and the world right then. I saw it like a big sheet of glass, too thick to break through. I could make new friends, but they could never know me. — Ava Dellaira

I think that I've been trying for a long time to feel like I am supposed to, instead of what I actually am. — Ava Dellaira

What I told you about saving people isn't true. You might think it is, because you might want someone else to save you, or you might want to save someone so badly. But no one else can save you, not really. Not from yourself. [ ... ] You fall asleep in the foothills, and the wolf comes down from the mountains. And you hope someone will wake you up. Or chase it off. Or shoot it dead. But when you realize that the wolf is inside you, that's when you know. You can't run from it. And no one who loves you can kill the wolf, because it's part of you. They see your face on it. And they won't fire the shot. — Ava Dellaira

The ghosts in the house are ours, and I just want to be with them. — Ava Dellaira

The numbers on the board don't mean a thing, because for the first time in forever, I have somewhere to go. — Ava Dellaira

Sometimes your music sounds like there's too much inside of you. Maybe even you couldn't get it all out. Maybe that's why you died. Like you exploded from the inside. — Ava Dellaira

Maybe when we can tell the stories, however bad they are, we don't belong to them anymore. They become ours. And maybe what growing up really means is knowing that you don't have to just be a character, going whichever way the story says. It's knowing that you could be the author instead. — Ava Dellaira

And if he wants more, she'll give it. If he says, 'God means for us to do this,' she'll believe him. — Ava Dellaira

I know I wrote letters to people with no address on this earth, I know that you are dead. But I hear you. I hear all of you. We were here. Our lives matter. — Ava Dellaira

There are two most important things in the world - being in danger, and being saved. — Ava Dellaira

And maybe that's what being in love does. So that a life, a person, a moment you need to keep, stays with you into infinity. — Ava Dellaira

After something really bad happens, the next worse thing is people feeling sorry for you about it. It's like confirmation that something is terribly wrong. — Ava Dellaira

I forgot for a moment to worry about how I was supposed to be. Because I was perfect right then. Everything — Ava Dellaira

I think Hannah must be afraid like I get afraid, the way I did when I heard the river, the way I do when I don't even know what the shadow is, but I feel it breathing. — Ava Dellaira

Halloween is one of my favorite holidays. Christmas and the others can end up making you sad, because you know you should be happy. But on Halloween you get to become anything that you want to be — Ava Dellaira

You made me feel what summertime really is. Underneath what's bright, you knew the hot dark rasp of it. — Ava Dellaira

Nothing is worse than when someone who's supposed to love you just leaves. — Ava Dellaira

There are some things that I can't tell anyone, except the people who aren't here anymore. — Ava Dellaira

And i still don't know how to make sense of the world. but maybe it's okay that it's bigger than what we can hold on to. — Ava Dellaira

May, I love you with everything I am. For so long, I just wanted to be like you. But I had to figure out that I am someone too, and now I can carry you, your heart with mine, everywhere I go. — Ava Dellaira

It's sad when everyone knows you, but no one knows you. — Ava Dellaira

I feel like I am drowning in memories. Everything is too bright. — Ava Dellaira

So maybe when we can say things, when we can write the words, when we can express how it feels, we aren't so helpless. — Ava Dellaira

Words aren't good enough for a lot of things, but we have to try. — Ava Dellaira

You are bravery to me. — Ava Dellaira

Grownups can be such fakes, I thought. They are always acting like they are trying to help you, and like they want to take care of you, but really they just want something from you. — Ava Dellaira

I felt like we were tiptoeing over a sheet of ice that could break any minute. — Ava Dellaira

The story seemed to start such a long time ago. It didn't fit into my brain, even. It started when i figured out how things could get broken ( ... ) It started when knowing was sadder than all of the things themselfs. — Ava Dellaira

Kids lose everything unless there's someone to look out for them. — Ava Dellaira

I mean, words can't be good enough for a lot of things. But, you know, I guess we have to try. — Ava Dellaira

But no one else can save you, not really. Not from yourself. — Ava Dellaira

Truth is beautiful, no matter what the truth is. Even if it's scary or bad. It is beauty simply because it's true. And truth is bright. Truth makes you more you. — Ava Dellaira

There are a lot of human experiences that challenge the limits of our language," she said. "That's one of the reasons that we have poetry. — Ava Dellaira

For the shadows to stop growing. For people to stop being angry. — Ava Dellaira

I have found that sometimes, moments get stuck in your body. They are there, lodged under your skin like hard seed-stones of wonder or sadness or fear, everything else growing up around them. And if you turn a certain way, if you fall, one of them could get free. It might dissolve in your blood, or it might spring up a whole tree. Sometimes, once one of them gets out, they all start to go. — Ava Dellaira

It's a testament to how much we loved you that we are still looking seventy-five years after your death. But sometimes I can't help wonder what would be different if we finally had an answer. — Ava Dellaira

You were the first to do her harm. You were the first person to make the world dangerous for her. — Ava Dellaira

You wore your clothes like armor, but in your songs you opened all the way up. You were willing to expose yourself without caring what anyone thought. I wish I was more like that. — Ava Dellaira

And maybe what growing up really means is knowing that you don't have to be just a character, going whichever way the story says. It's knowing you could be the author instead. — Ava Dellaira

You learned right away that applause sounds like love. — Ava Dellaira

With Sky, I can make the scary stuff disappear. We walk through the neighborhood after dark, and our shadows stand on top of each other, stretching across the whole street. We kiss, and I feel that if my shadow could stay inside of his, then he could eclipse everything that I don't want to remember. I can get lost in the things about him that are beautiful. — Ava Dellaira

But the truth is, the star was just on the sidewalk. Where people walk right over it. — Ava Dellaira

We were here. Our lives matter. — Ava Dellaira

Being a rock star is the intersection of who you are and who you want to be. — Ava Dellaira

I laid the tree down on the cement and started tearing through its trunk, until it was in jagged pieces. The smell of pine was overwhelming, like the tree's heart was leaking out. — Ava Dellaira

But we aren't transparent. If we want someone to know us, we have to tell them stuff. — Ava Dellaira

The thing about traditions is that they hold up the shape of your memory. — Ava Dellaira

It wasn't fair what happened to you, either. Or what happened to her. A lot of things aren't. I guess we can either be angry about it forever or else we just have to try to make things better with what we have now. — Ava Dellaira

But life isn't like that. You can't be sure how it's going to come out, even if you do everything right. They turn around on you, lives do. — Ava Dellaira

Today is a day when the world turns out to be flat. — Ava Dellaira

You taught them that people love you for what they want to see in you, not for what you are. — Ava Dellaira

She is running from something inside her that he can't see. — Ava Dellaira

Your family got broken when you were a kid, but then you made your own. — Ava Dellaira

We are each weird in a different way, but together, that's actually normal. — Ava Dellaira

It was a perfect first kiss, like a gust of wind that swept through me, taking my breath away and letting me breathe again all at once. A kiss to come alive in. — Ava Dellaira

I would've given him every part of me if he wanted it. — Ava Dellaira

Our flushing hearts, trying to climb to the stars- how with the wrong wind, we can fall. — Ava Dellaira

I guess somethings turned out too sad even to be explained with a bases-loaded strikeout. — Ava Dellaira

A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself - and especially to feel, or not to feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at any moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to
letting a person be what he really is. — Ava Dellaira

All of a sudden we were out of the lot and on the highway next to the mountains, flying. I put my hand out the window, and then I put my head out. I felt my hair blow behind me and the air rush into me, and I forgot for a moment to worry about how I was supposed to be. Because I was perfect right then. Everything was. And Sky was a perfect driver. Not scary. Just steady. And fast. I wanted the music to last forever. — Ava Dellaira

It's easy to feel like the bunny rabbi frozen in terror. And it's easy to feel like one of the fire balloons, at the whim of the wind, either rising up out of sight or burning down. Blow one direction or another. — Ava Dellaira

All there is is this deep-in-my-stomach feeling of terror, and this fear that there is no really happy ending anymore. — Ava Dellaira

Nirvana means freedom. Freedom from suffering. I guess some people would say that death is just that. So, congratulations on being free, I guess. The rest of us are still here, grappling with all that's been torn up. — Ava Dellaira

People can leave, and then they can come back. It sounds simple, like an obvious thing. But when I realized that, the truth if it seemed important. — Ava Dellaira

When we are in love, we are both completely in danger and completely saved. — Ava Dellaira

I think that by beauty, you don't just mean something that's pretty. You mean something that makes us human. — Ava Dellaira

But I think the thing that takes
me the most courage is realizing that as many oceans as I
might cross, the stupid simple truth will always be on the
other side. — Ava Dellaira

She walked like she belonged in a better world, — Ava Dellaira

When you set an intention, you can create transformation. — Ava Dellaira

Because once you're afraid of one thing, you can get scared of a lot of stuff. — Ava Dellaira

I loved the feeling of being alone together in the car, like we could go anywhere we wanted. Just us. — Ava Dellaira

Because of love, of course. The more you love something, the harder it is to lose. — Ava Dellaira

I know I could have saved your ashes to put into the ocean, but I wanted you to have the journey, all the way with the currents, to the open sea. And I know that when I finally get to see the waves washing on the shore, to hear them, I will feel you there. — Ava Dellaira

I didn't look in the mirror this time, because I knew it would scare me out of wearing it. I — Ava Dellaira

I turn invisible so I can just watch. — Ava Dellaira

I imagined your stick, washing in the waves for hundreds of years, turning to driftwood, smooth and hard like stone. I imagined a little girl finding it on a beach so many years later. Saving it on her shelf, where she put the things that made her feel like the world was magical. — Ava Dellaira

But what I love is the end of your poem, when the urn talks to us. It says this: 'Beauty is truth, truth beauty,--- that is all / ye know on earth, and all ye need to know.' I keep trying to figure out exactly what you mean, but that sentence is like a circle. If beauty is truth, and if truth is beauty, they are defined by each other, so how do we know the meaning of either? I think that we make our own meanings, by putting ourselves into them. — Ava Dellaira

I wished I were somewhere with him, instead of there. I was feeling like some kind of strangely shaped balloon whose string he was holding, and if he let go, I'd float off into the ether. — Ava Dellaira

Her bedroom walls are covered with magazine pictures, so that the walls don't end at the walls. They go outward, to a dream of somewhere else. — Ava Dellaira