Alysha Speer Quotes & Sayings

Sleep did not honor me with it's presence. — Alysha Speer

I will move on. I will smile and laugh and dance. I will run, not from my past, but toward my future. Towards ... me. — Alysha Speer

I felt like some part of my soul was ripped out and put under a microscope for criticizing. — Alysha Speer

There are moments in life that feel so perfect and so real. These are the moments that you live for. The moments you never want to end. — Alysha Speer

Never be afraid to be sexy! — Alysha Speer

There is pain in these eyes that you don't see. There is hurt in this heart that's killing me. — Alysha Speer

I need your lips to kiss me
I need your arms to hold me
I need your words to comfort me — Alysha Speer

When a poet settled down to write a poem, could he foresee the lines he would write? Did his head constantly spin with riddles and rhymes and was his only job to put them down? What if he couldn't get them to make sense, and no one, not even the person he cared for most, could have pleasure in reading it? What would he do? — Alysha Speer

Everything starts out as just friends, right? Everything. But then things change and suddenly you're in love with someone and your whole world is flipped upside down ... But you always have good intentions. Everything always starts out as just friends. — Alysha Speer

I'm sorry. I mean it too. I'm sorry for your pain and I'm sorry that you're having a hard time right now. I guess ... if life was easy there would be no point. You aren't going to find all the answers you're looking for straight away. It will probably take a while. I think the key is to keep moving until you realize what's right for you. Don't give up, don't put your life on hold, and don't surge forward into the darkness. Just be you. Because really ... what else can you be? — Alysha Speer

The paint was glossy, the car was clean, and we had a full tank of gas to us. The future was up to me, for now. — Alysha Speer

I did not ask for consciousness, yet it came to me.
And I had to know.
Once again, I crawled away from my bed and pushed the computer cord back into the socket.
It took three minutes.
I quickly identified myself and put in my password.
Then it thought.
I wanted to bounce impatiently, but I couldn't make myself move.
At last, I found the internet, and I typed in a name, on the company page, under my account.
I searched 'images'.
And there, on the screen in front of me, was the most beautiful person I'd ever seen.
I couldn't stop the tears from welling up and spilling over as I stared back at the smiling face.
It couldn't be him.
It was.
Derek Erickson.
And I was going to kill him. — Alysha Speer

Love is hard to find, hard to keep, and hard to forget. — Alysha Speer

He leaned down and kissed my forehead. The soft melody of his lips was calming. I closed my eyes. I could smell his human skin, his human breath, his human hair, and for the first time, I would give anything to be human too. — Alysha Speer

Everybody has a 'past', some more intense than others. But it's the past. I don't care what you've done. You're not what you've 'done'. — Alysha Speer

Oh, the time we spent alone
The hours wishing we could have it back again
Lie in bed awake wishing for each other — Alysha Speer

Though I probably didn't have much of a heart left to break, you broke mine, and now I can hardly breathe. I need you. — Alysha Speer

Life isn't good, life isn't bad. Instead I'm floating on a turf somewhere in between. — Alysha Speer

And though I was currently living a fairy tale, some part of my soul knew that happiness couldn't last forever. I didn't deserve a happily ever after, and there weren't many other cards to play when that was the truth. — Alysha Speer

It will always come and go. All you can do is hold on to the happy moments once the sad ones wash in. — Alysha Speer

Oh. My. Candlesticks. — Alysha Speer

You always say the right thing
I don't remember you saying wrong
You make me laugh
All the time

Always there for me you've never been gone
You make me feel like I belong
When I'm with you there's never
Anyone else

Hold me close when I'm feeling down
When I wake up you're still around
When I am cold
You warm me up

You always smile when I'm frowning
Hold my hand when I'm crying
Somehow you
cheer me up

I'm so lucky to have
A friend like you
But somehow
I want more
I'm afraid to lose you
But I can't stand to
Not tell you
I need you,
Just a little more

Perfect guy
Perfect friend
Why can't you be mine?
I just want
To be a little more than friends
Perfect guy
Perfect friend
Why can't you just
Be mine? — Alysha Speer

I'm not saying it'll be easy. It will probably be really hard. Between my parents, and the distance between us, it'll be really hard. But ... sometimes it's worth it. To have someone there. And I felt like ... like we worked together. Today. It felt right. And I might be full of crap but I do know one thing: I know how to love. — Alysha Speer

There are so many things to say; so many things that can't really be said.
So much has happened; so little has changed.
We have so many words prepared; so many words are too hard to actually say.
A few days have passed; this pain has been here for years.
We don't know where to go from here; our future has always been in our minds.
Moments of peace with those who constantly argue; fights with those that usually bring peace.
There are so many things to say; so many things that can't really be said. — Alysha Speer

On a second note, though, I have something to say about pain. There are lots of kinds of pain. Pain of smashing your fingers in a car door, pains of loosing a baby, pain of failing a test. But in their own little ways, these pains are all agonizing. Which is sad, and yet, happy, if you really think about it. If we never lost our car keys, or stepped in gum, or had a bad hair day, what kind of people would we be? In a word? Boring. We wouldn't be passionate; we wouldn't know it was exciting to get pregnant, or score an A on a final. So that's why, today at least, I am grateful for pain. Because it's part of what makes me the whacky, goofy, jaded, person that I am. Peace. — Alysha Speer

There was something behind the softness that intertwined our fingers together - love? It felt different from two days ago. All I could think about was his smooth hand, wrapped in mine. It was more than affection - but I wasn't sure how much more, or if that would ever change. — Alysha Speer

When I said "I love you" I meant forever. If I said "I hate you" I meant never. — Alysha Speer

Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that's why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that's why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living. — Alysha Speer

Once upon a raindrop, I landed on Depression. My umbrella broke and broke me with it's bones. It hurt but didn't, and it eased my rain. Curious a little afraid, I tried it once again. Bitter feeling, my starburst shrunk with fear. Sadness filled me up and now I'm here. Repeat, repeat, feeling numb and blue. Cutting became my flight from Depression to Okay and I pushed through. Though a bad solution, it became the one. It's lasted years, it's never done. Once upon a raindrop, I smile and blink a tear. Sometimes my plane flies me back to Depression and cutting then appears. I try and try to stop, but I always round the bend. I can stay on Okay for months, but then I reach an end. It's been a rough road, maybe it will end. It's been a rough road, I know cutting's not my friend. So my starburst searches for solutions, not sure which to choose. And once upon a raindrop, I might land in Happy's shoes. — Alysha Speer

Hold these tears inside
Don't have the energy to cry
Stand back and breathe
Ice freezes in your veins — Alysha Speer

The truth doesn't mind being told every once in a while. — Alysha Speer

The end is soon ... I feel it. If you're close, run away, far, hide, do whatever you can. Who knows if we'll be safe. — Alysha Speer

You'll meet a lot of stupid guys. You'll probably get your heart broken more than once. You might reach a point where life seems worthless without him. Maybe you've already hit that point. I can't tell you to to stop crying, because sometimes, crying helps. I can't ask you to smile, because sometimes, it's all you can do to just breathe. I can't make you happy, because that's something you have to do yourself. But I can promise you one thing. I will be there for you. I will listen if you need to rant. I will hug you if you're feeling alone. I will drive you away if you need to escape. I will buy you coffee, goddammit, if you need some. I will be there for you, because you've always been there for me. — Alysha Speer

Time to go run the calories away, do away with all the numbers stalking you, throw out the bad habits and excess weight. — Alysha Speer

Life is hell, at some point we all just have to get used to it. — Alysha Speer

I choose to write because it's perfect for me. It's an escape, a place I can go to hide. It's a friend, when I feel out casted from everyone else. It's a journal, when the only story I can tell is my own. It's a book, when I need to be somewhere else. It's control, when I feel so out of control. It's healing, when everything seems pretty messed up.
And it's fun, when life is just flat-out boring. — Alysha Speer

Only write a story that only you can write. — Alysha Speer

Depression weighs you down like a rock in a river. You don't stand a chance. You can fight and pray and hope you have the strength to swim, but sometimes, you have to let yourself sink. Because you'll never know true happiness until someone or something pulls you back out of that river
and you'll never believe it until you realize it was you, yourself who saved you. — Alysha Speer

So many thoughts ran through my head. Most of them contained the same, simply three words so often strung together that it was too much a classic cheese or cliche to say it, but they still had meaning, no matter how many times they had been repeated. — Alysha Speer

You never really know what's coming. A small wave, or maybe a big one. All you can really do is hope that when it comes, you can surf over it, instead of drown in its monstrosity. — Alysha Speer

It's always a little heartbreaking
The time we spend apart
Craving for your touch, your smile
Need your warmth around my heart — Alysha Speer

They see you, but they don't really see you. — Alysha Speer

I was not weak; I did not cry. But it hurt me, more in a kind of refreshing, thrilling way, than a kind of pain that would cripple me and send me away crying. My fingernails dug into the palms of my hands, and my teeth bit into my lips, my knees were locked, but I could not faint. — Alysha Speer