Redmerski Quotes & Sayings

I don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have. — J.A. Redmerski

You two were meant to be together. It's like some wicked fucking fairytale love story that you just can't make up, y'know? — J.A. Redmerski

He's gawking at me when I open the door.
"Damn girl," he says, looking me over, "what the hell are you trying to do to me?"
I look down at myself, still trying to wake up the rest of the way and realize I'm in those tiny cotton white shorts and varsity tee with no bra on underneath. Oh my God, my nipples are like beacons shining through my shirt! I cross my arms over my chest and try not to look at him i the eyes when he helps himself the rest of the way inside.
"I was going to tell you to get dressed," he goes on, grinning as he walks into the room carrying his bags and the guitar, "but really, you can go just like that if you want."
I shake my head, hiding the smile creeping up on my face. — J.A. Redmerski

She stops chewing and brings the chains on her wrist up to her nose and sniffs. She pulls away with a mild disgusted expression. Definitely smells like a skank ... — J.A. Redmerski

I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. I've known you for a short time, but I feel like I've known you forever. — J.A. Redmerski

[ ... ]after spending so long with someone [ ... ] they eventually begin to see through all of the things you think you're hiding from them so well. — J.A. Redmerski

Just because one person's problem is less traumatic than another's doesn't mean they're required to hurt less — J.A. Redmerski

When you're with someone for so long you get used to them, y'know? It's a comfort-zone thing. When we get settled in our comfort zone, trying to pull us out of it even if everything about it is hell and unhealthy, is like trying to pull a fat ass couch potato out of his living room long enough to get a life. — J.A. Redmerski

I love the smell of Waffle House; it's the smell of freedom, being on the open road and knowing that ninety percent of the people eating around you are also on that road. Truck driver's, road-trippers, hangovers
those who don't live that monotonous life of society slavery. — J.A. Redmerski

You're the world to me," I whisper onto
her lips. "I hope you never forget that."
"I'll never forget," she whispers back.. "But if I ever do, for
whatever reason, I hope you'll always find a way to remind me."
... "Always. — J.A. Redmerski

It's like, you know, it doesn't matter what you do, even if you try to replicate an experience down to every last detail, it'll never be the way it was when it happened naturally the first time. — J.A. Redmerski

Can't tell twelve from twenty these days, son. It must be something the government has been puttin' in the water - be damn careful when you need to knock some boots. — J.A. Redmerski

I was completely into Isaac Mayfair. Everything just felt right, like it was meant to be. Whatever "it" was. ~Adria — J.A. Redmerski

It's my future and my life and I can't make myself live the way someone else wants me to. — J.A. Redmerski

She got pissed when I accused her of having Bieber Fever (it pisses me off that I even know what the fuck that means - I blame that on society) — J.A. Redmerski

Depression is pain in its purest form. — J.A. Redmerski

the key to surviving change: embracing it, however cumbersomely, or gracefully, one can. — J.A. Redmerski

Then why would you buy it?" I ask, and then answer for him sarcastically, "Oh it's a collectible. I get it. You could mount it somewehere in the backseat of the car." I smirk at him. "Or, I could put you in the backseat and mount it in the front." My mouth falls open slightly. Andrew grins and slides the record back in the box. — J.A. Redmerski

A bus ride is like being in another world. — J.A. Redmerski

If your dad doesn't make it," I begin and his expression falls, "let yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually it ... starts to make things darker. — J.A. Redmerski

You're like a philosopher with tattoos. — J.A. Redmerski

She sticks her tongue out at me and crosses her eyes. Not sure why that made me want to do her in the backseat, but to each his own, I guess. — J.A. Redmerski

... dwelling and planning is bullshit," he says. "You dwell on the past, you can't move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you say stagnant in the same place all your life." His eyes lock on mine. "Live in the moment. — J.A. Redmerski

You can do this, Adria. Don't wolf-out on me, especially not in my lap, alright? These are my favorite jeans. — J.A. Redmerski

I'm not just sleeping with an assassin. I've grown very attached to one. — J.A. Redmerski

If it makes you feel better, you can tell me to screw off if you want to refuse anything, but I hope you won't because I really want to show you how to live. - Andrew Parrish — J.A. Redmerski

I think when you fall in love, like true love, it's love for life. All the rest is just experiences and delusions. — J.A. Redmerski

I run behind her, letting her stay a few steps ahead of me so if she happens to fall I'll be there to laugh at her first and then help her up afterwards. — J.A. Redmerski

I want you, goddammit! ... The thought of you leaving at never seeing you again tears-me-up-inside! ... I can't fucking breathe without you! — J.A. Redmerski

I say that I'm not into you like that, Camryn, because..," he pauses, searching my face, looking at my lips for a moment as if deciding whether or not he should kiss them again, " ... because you're not the girl I could only sleep with once. — J.A. Redmerski

I really would like to know how you managed to snag that one," she adds, watching Isaac approach us from the parking lot. "Does he have a brother? Seriously
I'll take his second cousin. — J.A. Redmerski

Well, I'm glad you didn't drown." His eyes warm up with his face. I smile back at him. "Yeah, that would've sucked." "Definitely. — J.A. Redmerski

So often I sit around and think about life and wonder about every possible aspect of it. I wonder what the hell I'm doing here. — J.A. Redmerski

Wait, it's going to fall," I say, pointing to the banner. "Pull it tighter-there, yeah, see how loose it is?"
"A little to the left" Isaac mocks me, grinning. "A little to the right?"
I stick my tongue out at him.
"Better be careful with that thing," he jokes. — J.A. Redmerski

I know I'm not your first anything, but I hope that I'll be your last everything. — J.A. Redmerski

Andrew holds my face in his hands and he pushes my hair away from my eyes and he kisses away the tears that I tried so hard to keep hidden for his sake, so he wouldn't have to waste any of his strength on me. But the heart has a mind of its own and it walways gets what it wants, espcially when it's dying. — J.A. Redmerski

Oh, you are the cutest thing I've ever seen," her voice rises a little higher the more excited she gets. Then she looks up straight at Camryn and says with a serious face, "Oh my God, I want one. — J.A. Redmerski

I look at those hands. I look at them, long and hard and symbolically, because in my heart I know they're the hands that will end my life before this night is over. — J.A. Redmerski

You're sleeping with an assassin, running for your life every single day from men who want to kill you and you're convinced you're going to die of discomfort. — J.A. Redmerski

I go to the window of my top floor hotel room and gaze out, not at the glittering city, but at the stars fully awake in the early morning sky. And I see her, Izabel, Sarai, in every single one of them. And this is how I know, that because of her, because I see her in everything, I am not only a monster, but a man. — J.A. Redmerski

Laugh, I Nearly Died," Andrew answers. "You've probably never heard that one before. — J.A. Redmerski

I just became Camryn Parrish. — J.A. Redmerski

For anyone who has ever had a moment of weakness. It won't be painful forever, so don't let it get the best of you. — J.A. Redmerski

Oh, I should probably set a few ground rules before we do this."
"Oh?" I turn at the waist and look at him curiously. "What kind of ground rules?"
He smiles.
"Well, number one: my car, my stereo; I'm sure I don't need to elaborate on that. — J.A. Redmerski

But love isn't always roses and rainbows and butterflies in your stomach. It's equally cruel and painful and the world's worst villain. — J.A. Redmerski

Sarai, you never know who might betray you until it's too late. — J.A. Redmerski

My plant is probably dead."
Camryn looks slightly surprised. "You have a plant?"
I smile. "Yeah, her name's Georgia. — J.A. Redmerski

For the first time in my life, I've felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. — J.A. Redmerski

I know what you must be thinking: What a bitch. And you'll get no argument from me on that one. I was pretty messed up back then. I loved Elias with all my head, and that scared the hell out of me.
But I should get something out of the way before I dive into the excuses of why I was the way I was. I'm sure Elias sugarcoated me with his bias and all, but if this story is going to be told, then it needs to be told in its truth and entirety, without Band-Aids and training wheels.
I was fucked up. — J.A. Redmerski

The moment you see someone attractive, you can't help but make note of it. It's human nature. — J.A. Redmerski

And either this will be my first night as a killer, or my last night alive. — J.A. Redmerski

I'm definitely not some kind of reformed badass created by my extraordinary experiences, either. Just ask the spider that crawled on me the other night while I was reading a book in bed. Mrs. Gregory about had a heart attack I screamed so loud. — J.A. Redmerski

Are you in love with me, Camryn Bennett?"
... "Not yet," I say with a smile in my voice, "but I'm getting there. — J.A. Redmerski

The twins hobbled forward. "Freaks and dames and boys and things, drinks and bones and shiny rings," said the twin on the left.
"Ashes and earth will imprison the frail, blood of love will lift the veil," said the other. — J.A. Redmerski

I love you so much, Bray. So fucking much! Sobs rattled my chest briefly until I managed to calm myself.
Bray finally gave in and lunged forward, wrapping her arms around me. I scooped her up into them, squeezing the life out of her and into me. We shared that life. We always had. And from this day forth, we both knew that we always would.
Even if it killed us. — J.A. Redmerski

There is a stark difference between fear and uncertainty, Sarai. You fear nothing but are uncertain of everything. — J.A. Redmerski

The open road is gone. The spontaneous stops and sometimes not knowing where we are but not giving a damn, is gone. — J.A. Redmerski

If you were to let me fuck you, you would have to let me own you. — J.A. Redmerski

I turn toward the window beside me because unlike Victor, I have absolutely no control over the smile on my face, and I can't risk letting him see it. ~~~~ — J.A. Redmerski

I believe that no matter what happens, or where we go, or if there's an afterlife, that we'll always be connected. Not even death can make me forget you, or forget that I love you. — J.A. Redmerski

Dilemma? Let him have his way with something simple, or keep getting my way and him torture me later? Hmmm. I guess I'm more of a masochist than I thought. — J.A. Redmerski

I hate to say it, but shit really does happen. You just have to get over it. Beat the hell out of it by doing things that make you happy. — J.A. Redmerski

Oh, this is going to be fun; he actually thinks he's teaching me something. — J.A. Redmerski

My beautiful swan. My savior and my undoing. — J.A. Redmerski

To lovers and dreamers and anyone who
hasn't truly experienced either. — J.A. Redmerski

Because love is the greatest scam of all time. And because as much as I fucking love you, I hate you for inflicting it upon me! — J.A. Redmerski

When I could hold my eyes open long enough, I did stare up at the rain pelting down on me. I've never looked at it like that, straight up into the sky, and while I flinched more than I could actually see, when I could see it was absolutely beautiful. Like each drop rocketing towards me was separate from the thousands of others and for a suspended moment in time, I could glimpse it and see its delicate facets. I saw the gray clouds churning above me and felt the car shake when the wind from the traffic pushed against it. I shivered even though it's warm enough to swim. But nothing I saw or felt or heard was as warm and fascinating as Andrew's closeness. — J.A. Redmerski

What the hell is this?' I ask turning around, holding up a box of Vagisil in my fingers.
He looks incredibly uncomfortable. 'It's ... well, you know,' he winces, 'for your ... girly parts. — J.A. Redmerski

It's like irresistible poison: I'm mesmerized by the way it's making me feel though it has the potential to crush my soul and I drink it down anyway. — J.A. Redmerski

Best friends, no matter what they do or how much they hurt you, it only hurts as much as it does because they are your best friend. And none of us are perfect. Mistakes were made for best friends to forgive; it's what makes being a best friend official. — J.A. Redmerski

Things always change when someone you love dies. You just can't prepare yourself for those changes no matter what you do in advance.
The only thing that's a certainty in always wondering who's going to be next. — J.A. Redmerski

And when someone grows up knowing so little of what real love feels like, whether from family, or friends, or the love of a companion, that person starts to believe that they weren't meant to be loved, that good things will never happen to them. They start to believe that whenever something good does happen, it's inevitable that something bad will come along to replace it. — J.A. Redmerski

Jealousy and envy are cheap suits made of flashy colors," I said. "No one wears them well, and everyone sees you when you are coming. — J.A. Redmerski

I don't listen to Justin Bieber or that crazy meat-wearin' bitch, so I guess you'll just have to do without. — J.A. Redmerski

It's the people y'gotta watch out for. You never know who y'might meet, or what Ol' Man Fate has in store for yah. — J.A. Redmerski

I know you lost your partner in crime, but ... I want YOU to be MINE. Maybe WE should travel the world together, Camryn ... I know I can't replace your ex
"
"Andrew ... it was always you. — J.A. Redmerski

He never leaves my side. And I know he never will. — J.A. Redmerski

I'm not sure what this is between us," he says carefully, "but I am sure that I don't want it to stop. Whatever it is. — J.A. Redmerski

I could die in this bed with him right now, wrapped in his arms and I would never know that I had died. — J.A. Redmerski

Truthfully, he lives right next to the Sexy Tree and I think that's the only thing that bothers me about this whole situation. — J.A. Redmerski

I watch her so much that I forget it's raining at all. — J.A. Redmerski

I guess my parents really screwed me up somewhere along the line because as good as they are to me, as much as they do for me and as much as I love them, I still managed to grow up terrified I would end up just like them. Unhappy and only pretending to live out this wonderful life with two kids, a dog and a white picket fence. But in reality, I knew they sleep with their backs facing each other. — J.A. Redmerski

I was wrong about you, Izabel," I whisper near her ear; the pain engulfing my insides. "I am the ticking time bomb. I am more unstable than I ever could have imagined. You are discipline, and I am rage. And the only way I know to control the chaos inside, is to eradicate the things that control me. — J.A. Redmerski

This goes against everything that I am, Sarai," he says and then kisses me. "No, it doesn't," I whisper and kiss him back. "It's you becoming more of who you really are. — J.A. Redmerski

I can do whatever I want, yet I find it eternally difficult to choose where to begin. Or if to begin at all. — J.A. Redmerski

Just that dwelling and planning is bullshit, you dwell on the past, you can't move forward. Spend too much time planning for the future and you just push yourself backwards, or you stay stagnant in the same place all your life. Live in the moment, where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster and with less bumps in the road along the way. — J.A. Redmerski

Love always comes first. — J.A. Redmerski

You ask me, and I'll tell you the truth - anything out of people's usual expectations throws them off track. — J.A. Redmerski

Where everything is just right, take your time and limit your bad memories and you'll get wherever it is you're going a lot faster. — J.A. Redmerski

You're more important to me than anything or anyone ... I want to wake up every morning with you next to me. I need you in my life more than I have ever needed or wanted anything. — J.A. Redmerski

I think I've been afraid most of my life to be myself. — J.A. Redmerski

Who needs psychiatrists? Who needs grief counsellors and life coaches and motivational speakers? Fuck all that! Just stare at the night sky and let yourself get lost in it every now and then. — J.A. Redmerski

I have to live and make my own choices, my own mistakes. You have to let me be me, even if i suck at it sometimes. - Adria — J.A. Redmerski

Face. Palm. Moment. — J.A. Redmerski

Heart always wins out over the mind. The heart, although reckless and suicidal and a masochist all on its own, always gets its way. — J.A. Redmerski

I can't sit through this thing with you next to me flashing your man cave the whole time. — J.A. Redmerski

The longer you look the more you see," said the twins at the same time, "the more you see, the less you are. — J.A. Redmerski

I'm so hard right now my dick can cut diamonds.
- Andrew Parrish — J.A. Redmerski

Whether it was about sleeping next to a pile of cow shit or under a bridge overpass next to a homeless drunk-I would sleep anywhere with her. — J.A. Redmerski

You made me feel real emotions. You unlocked me. — J.A. Redmerski