Trista Mateer Quotes & Sayings

My hands are still shaking from
nights spent not knowing
how to want you. — Trista Mateer

You said: "most days, I pity you more than I love you". I just love you. — Trista Mateer

loved a man for years who said her eyes looked like the ocean, because she always wanted to be somebody's poem, somebody's simile, somebody's lackluster metaphor. — Trista Mateer

I hope one day
somebody loves you
so much

that they see violets
in the bags under your eyes,
sunsets in the downward arch
of your lips

that they recognize you
as something green,
something fresh and still growing
even if sometimes
you are growing sideways

that they do not waste their time
trying to fix you. — Trista Mateer

And now that I am older, I don't give a damn about sin. I will be the first to cast one. — Trista Mateer

I'm sorry for the poems.
All the shouting I did about your mouth. — Trista Mateer

I am going to hurt you.
You are going to hurt me.

But we will do it with practiced fingers
and passionate mouths
and I swear to god

it will be worth something. — Trista Mateer

so the poem hurt you.
it was supposed to. — Trista Mateer

Some people are born flight risks. It is no shortcoming of yours that they cannot keep their feet on the ground. It is not your fault that they cannot seem to stand in place. They are not leaving you; they are just leaving. — Trista Mateer

I will greet you with a mouth full of barbed wire until you learn to stop coming after me with your hands. — Trista Mateer

Sometimes I think I resented you so much it felt like love. — Trista Mateer

can we say goodbye again? i miss the way you rip me open. i — Trista Mateer

Girl like a garden you never volunteered to tend. Dirt all tracked into your front hall. — Trista Mateer

I still remember you
as a little girl
who overwaters plants
because she doesn't know
when to stop giving. — Trista Mateer

I do not tell her that sometimes it feels like compromising yourself is part of growing up. — Trista Mateer

I still have a lot of growing to do
and I know there is more room for it
in your absence. — Trista Mateer

i loved her more than i loved you and i'm sorry that you knew it. — Trista Mateer

I promised no more poetry and I'd rather think of this as a confession: you are still the first person I want to share new things with. — Trista Mateer

You came and you left and I'm just looking to quick dry cement it, press and bend it, fold it up and tuck it away for safe keeping. I know that it's reaching but I just want to leave your name on a page somewhere and never need to come back to it. — Trista Mateer

Tonight I wish I had someone's body pressed up against mine. I am glad you are not here to see this. I — Trista Mateer

Hurt me once: shame on me. Hurt me twice: shame on me. Hurt me three times: shame on me but fuck you. Hurt me four times and we'll get severed-head biblical. — Trista Mateer

For everyone I meet with your name
I'm sorry. — Trista Mateer

Like one moment I am whole, but then I hear your voice on the phone and I swear to god three blocks away from here they can smell smoke. — Trista Mateer

For Brittanie

There will always be men
who have fishhooks for fingers.
There will always be women
with wet, sharp mouths.
It is okay to get caught up in them.

It is not okay to drown.

Don't you ever let another human
being tear you apart.
Remember that you have claws
and teeth, too.

Remember that you are better off
whole. — Trista Mateer

I'm sorry that I am back and forth, push and pull
instead of effortless simplicity. — Trista Mateer