Robin LaFevers Quotes & Sayings

Some days, like today, my aim and timing is so true it takes my breath away and I feel certain Mortain's hand guides my own. — Robin LaFevers

I have lived now in the real world, with all its mess and turmoil, all its wildness and all its beauty, and I can never unsee what I have seen, I can never unknow what I now know. More importantly, something deep inside me has awakened, and now that I have moved through the world fully aware, it is impossible to let myself be lulled back to sleep. — Robin LaFevers

Just as I am drifting off to sleep, he speak again, so softly I almost cannot be certain it is not a dream.
I am sorry. You make me ashamed of what we are, of what little we can offer you, and I lashed out at you when what I really wanted was to punish my own dark thoughts. — Robin LaFevers

Men of power are unwilling to believe anything ill of their own kind. — Robin LaFevers

I feel grace. Warm and flowing like a river, it pours over me. I am awash in grace and cannot help but raise my face to it as I would the sun. I want to laugh as it rains downs on me, ripples through my limbs, cleanses them of fatigue and self-loathing. I am reborn in this grace, and suddenly, I can do anything. — Robin LaFevers

You came to us a lump of clay, and we molded you into an instrument of Death. — Robin LaFevers

The fault lies not with you she says this so gently it makes me want to cry. I have never shed a tear, not throughout all my father's beatings or guillo's mauling, but a few kind words from this women and it is all i can do not to bawl like a babe. — Robin LaFevers

She carries nothing" he says, "but a small dagger and an even smaller heart. — Robin LaFevers

Getting the poison to them is more difficult than it should be. I cannot just slip it into their food, they eat with the rest of the household, and as much as I dislike everyone here, I am not willing to poison them all. At least not yet. — Robin LaFevers

And there it is. The threat I have lived with my entire life. If I am not good enough, kind enough, thoughtful enough, obedient enough, I will be cast from my home like a stunted fish from a fisherman's net. — Robin LaFevers

And then, without any warning at all, he presses his lips against mine.
As his mouth covers my own, I find myself reeling, as if I have been tipped backward and am falling, falling, so that even the stars in the sky are spinning. His lips are warm and soft, the unrelenting pull of his desire for me as strong as the pull of the waves against the sand.
It is not like practicing with Ismae, or even Sybella. It is not like any of the first kisses I have imagined over the years. It is far, far better and more wondrous, and yet terrifying as well, like one of the raging storms that pound against the convent walls in the winter, threatening to breach its defenses. So too does this kiss threaten something deep within me that I cannot even name. — Robin LaFevers

I am a handmaiden of Death. I walk in His dark shadow and do His bidding. Serving Him is my only purpose in this life, and I have let my annoyance drive that duty from my mind. It will not happen again. — Robin LaFevers

You're jealous!" I am so surprised I scarce remember to keep my voice low. He flinches at the word, then looks sorely affronted. "Jealous? Of that old man? Nay, it is just that if anyone is to hunt you, it should be me. — Robin LaFevers

I have avoided the fate my father planed for me, surely it is I who won not he. — Robin LaFevers

You always hold a piece of yourself back, Annith. For all your love and affection and kindness, there is always a part of yourself that you withhold from others. — Robin LaFevers

What good is fighting if what you are fighting for is lost? — Robin LaFevers

I know I should look away, let him grieve in private, but I cannot. The sweet girl that I knew only briefly is the key to this gentle beast who has captured my heart. — Robin LaFevers

I point out. It was the most foolish, jape-fisted bit of buffoonery I have ever seen, and I am impressed in spite of that. — Robin LaFevers

I am sorry. I did not see you. Normally you are lurking in the corners or skulking in the shadows, not standing in plain sight."
"I never skulk, and lurk only sometimes. — Robin LaFevers

I am beginning to think that love itself is never wrong. It is what love can drive people to do that is the problem. — Robin LaFevers

If Death could grant you a wish, you would use it for someone else? Trade your happiness for someone else's? — Robin LaFevers

Besides, he is one of the few things that has ever loved me and survived. — Robin LaFevers

Marveling at how easily he has absolved me, I step forward and take his big hands into my own. Not you, for you are as different from them as day is from night. — Robin LaFevers

I must have faith, but having faith is hard, so very much harder than despair. — Robin LaFevers

He snorts in disbelief. Is that yet another miracle of Mortain? That His acolytes are able to contort themselves enough to tend to their own backs? — Robin LaFevers

I will no longer sit and wait patiently for my happiness to grow like some budding fruit on the limbs of a tree, but will mold it and shape it with my own hands. — Robin LaFevers

And have you never questioned your faith? Never doubted or turned your back on Him?"
"No. I have not. — Robin LaFevers

Indeed, I am as skilled as any alchemist, but instead of turning lead into gold, I turn my fear into daring, and assuredly that is a far greater trick. — Robin LaFevers

Lie as convincingly as I can and pray she doesn't kill someone important. — Robin LaFevers

Good intentions are only lies the weak tell themselves. — Robin LaFevers

It is best if you do not spend all your time wishing you were somewhere else. — Robin LaFevers

not all are lessons are so — Robin LaFevers

We are all of us, gods and mortals, made up of many pieces, some of them broken, some of them scarred, but none of them the total sum of who we are. — Robin LaFevers

I do not do small pieces, only large. — Robin LaFevers

I was wondering, since I have kissed you three times now, if you might turn into a handsome prince." At the sight of his quick, easy grin, I feel my heart dance in my chest.
"Alas, you are still stuck with a toad, my lady. — Robin LaFevers

two orbs of flesh? — Robin LaFevers

Impossible things do happen. But only if we make them. — Robin LaFevers

Wasn't she scared?" Isabeau asked, her voice naught but a whisper. "To go with death?"
"No." I reach over and tuck her hair behind her ear. "For death is not scary or evil or even unmerciful; it is simply death. — Robin LaFevers

Something has changed me, but it has also freed me. — Robin LaFevers

When one has made as many mistakes as I have, one becomes very familiar with the fullness of God's grace and mercy. — Robin LaFevers

How do you not know the nature of the hellequin's hunt? Have you sprouted from the earth wholly formed, like some miraculous cabbage? — Robin LaFevers

Yes. I have see Him, but He is the god of Death, not some knight to be swooned over. — Robin LaFevers

Don't you see? Your mortal heart shines like a candle flame and I, like one of those hapless black moths you used to leave as an offering, am helpless before its lure. — Robin LaFevers

I will not let them take you alive." Of all the things he could have said, that is the one thing that comforts me the most. "Nor I you," I say around a strange lump that has formed in my throat. — Robin LaFevers

It is rarely a lack of love that forces two hearts apart, but other obstacles. — Robin LaFevers

What I feel is his need and desire and longing, crashing against me like waves against the shore, calling to those same unwanted feelings I hold for him. And always that inexplicable connection that draws me to him. — Robin LaFevers

I have always been willful and stubborn. It is one of my greatest sins."

"But is it a sin? If it allows you to survive? Endure? Prevail? — Robin LaFevers

The abbess may well try and force me to return to the convent, silent and in disgrace, but I will not go back. Not like this. Indeed, I can see no way I can ever return to the convent, for the abbess will not let me return in victory, and I refuse to do so in defeat. — Robin LaFevers

What do you know of gods and saints?" I ask, filling my voice with scorn.
His fingers drift to the silver oak leaf of Saint Camulos on his cloak. "I know that what our saints want is not always made clear to us. Sometimes, it is their wish for us to flail and struggle and come to our own choices, not accept ones that have been made for us. — Robin LaFevers

He pauses then, studying me. "How would you have done it?"
His question surprises me. "You mean how would I have killed you?"
"Yes. Do you have a favorite method for such things?"
Since he knows I am an assassin, there is no need to be coy. "I prefer a garrote. I like the intimacy it allows me when I whisper reminders of vengeance in their ears as they die. But in your case, I had sharpened my favorite knife especially for the occasion."
His brows quirk up. "Why no garrote for me?"
I look pointedly at his thick neck, bulging with muscle and sinew. "I do not have one big enough," I mutter. — Robin LaFevers

My lady! Come away from there before you catch your death! Her words bring a smile to my lips. Does she think Death is some small bird with my name written on it, beating at the window in the hope that I will catch it? — Robin LaFevers

If you so much as snicker, I will kill you all. — Robin LaFevers

At least I will not be the ugliest one here. — Robin LaFevers

My hand tightens on my wine goblet, and I am glad it is silver, not glass, for surely it would shatter under the force of my annoyance with this woman. — Robin LaFevers

You love me?"
"Yes, you great lummox. I love you."
He lets out a sigh. "Sweet Camulos! It's about time. — Robin LaFevers

He flashes a grin that is two parts death and one part humor. — Robin LaFevers

And I must remind myself that assassins should take no pleasure in their finery and frippery. — Robin LaFevers

He lowers his lips to mine, placing them over my mouth gently, our kiss bearing the weight of a thousand we may never have. — Robin LaFevers

We cannot be held responsible for what our families do, especially when we have no way to control them. — Robin LaFevers

I want you to be with me for the right reasons. Not because you feel you must or because you fear we will die, but because you want it with your heart and your body. — Robin LaFevers

Once they leave to see to their other duties, I go to stand before the fire, feeling once again as if I have been completely upended and remade anew, when in truth, I have barely caught my breath from the first time my life shattered before my eyes.

But this- this is different. This is no shattering, but rather some great knitting together of the broken pieces into a stronger whole.

I feel cleansed, not only of sin- but of artifice. I am stripped down to nothing but my raw self. As uncomfortable as it makes me feel, there is freedom in it as well, for there is no place left for others' expectations and desires of me to hide. — Robin LaFevers

Everyone has a price, it seems — Robin LaFevers

One heart cannot serve two masters. — Robin LaFevers

A short while later, as I stare down at the bodies of the six men I have just killed, I cannot help but wonder: Do I love killing? Of a certainty, I love the way my body and weapons move as one; I revel in the knowledge of where to strike for maximum impact. And of a certainty, I am good at it. — Robin LaFevers

You are not my nursemaid. Remember, I am rescuing you. — Robin LaFevers

Why be the sheep when you can be the wolf? — Robin LaFevers