Rae Earl Quotes & Sayings

Kids say stupid stuff all the time,' but it hurts even as I am writing this. It's like everywhere I go I am pointed at and stared at by EVERYONE and it's like my weight is there to be discussed and laughed at.
But if I was in a wheelchair they wouldn't do it. If I had terrible scars they wouldn't do it - but it's OK to do it to me. Because they know. I caused this. This is self-inflicted,
This is lazy, stupid, careless, crap, fat me. — Rae Earl

I love being with people and hate being disliked. It's a mass thing ... but I want a special kind of relationship with one person too.
I just can't seem to have both — Rae Earl

ME LIKE THE MAGNET
Men I like, I repel
Like a magnet do
So if I'm nasty
Then you know
I probably fancy you.
"It's defence," the shrinks would say.
"It's protects against a fall."
It's impenetrable this fence of mine
It's like the Berlin Wall. — Rae Earl

And once you are that fat, the 'fuck-it-factor; comes into play. The fuck-it factor means that you know (even the most basic grasp of nutrition) it will take ages to lose your excess weight, so you might as well get an easy lay by sticking half a packet of Hula Hoops into a tub of cheese spread. — Rae Earl

You can spend the rest of your life being afraid of people rejecting you. You have to start by not rejecting yourself. You don't deserve it. — Rae Earl

What is it about men in dinner jackets?! Black tie makes even the most geeky bloke look gorgeous, and as for the already good-looking ones - well, it sends them into sex appeal overdrive, and they know it. — Rae Earl

So eventually I instantly backed down and apologised for NOTHING. She was instantly fine - surprise, surprise. — Rae Earl

There is never just one bitch in a fat, mad girl's life. — Rae Earl

There was this one model in French Elle. I can't imagine what it must be like to be her. She was brunette with big lips and was wearing this tight navy dress by Azzedine someone. She was so beautiful; and the choices she must have. and ... Oh, I would give it all up just to have been born that way because her life will be so easy. She won't have to think, and men will fall into her lap and ... It's all unfair and I don't want to even write it.
It will never change, and no one wants to admit it but being thin and pretty is the best thing a woman can be. — Rae Earl

I want to save the world but I haven't worked out a way to save myself yet. — Rae Earl

She reckons most of those models eat about one carrot a week, chew cotton wool like race horse jockeys to keep thin, and smoke cigarettes.
Apparently, they all look like crap by the time they are 30, and go out with the 'wrong' sort of men.. — Rae Earl

I can be such a horrible person sometimes. But I think we all are underneath. Sometimes. I only say bad things here. Never to people's faces. I've had that much crap said to me I don't want anyone sitting in their bedroom feeling shit because of me.
Couldn't live with that. — Rae Earl

The point is- who is mad and who isn't? — Rae Earl

And that will be on my medical records for ever.
Everyone will always know I'm a nutter. Behavioural problems. I'm just a bloody label ...
A label written on a white board in a single room without a radio, in a place where everyone else was at least 20 years older than me. Can't think about it. It's anger that goes nowhere. — Rae Earl

Some people are doing Ouija boards at school but I'm not touching that shit. Knowing my luck, bloody Jack the Ripper would try to get in touch. — Rae Earl

Bloody hell, things are bad when you want to be a robin more then yourself — Rae Earl

And it makes you think. Even things that have been the same for years and years can change. Maybe I can change. I can bring my own wall down, and let people in. — Rae Earl

I want to be loved. Oh, it's SO CORNY, isn't it?! But I just want to be loved by a bloke that loves ME! I want to feel special, you know. I almost feel guilty for feeling it. — Rae Earl

I laughed it off but I close the bedroom door and I lose it and I stick it all down here and this is where it all stays.
And this is where it has to stay because I am not ending up in the nutter ward again with brown walls, jigsaws, and people crying that their husbands left them, and men slamming their heads against walls, and Mum bringing me a mini trifle and a copy of Smash Hits like that would make everything better.
It didn't. It won't. It can't. Psychiatric wards when most of my mates were ... .I can't tell anyone what is going on ... Can't write ... Can't think about it.
Not even here. — Rae Earl

I wish I was Rapunzel
Letting down her hair
But at the bottom of my tower
There's nobody stood there.
No prince to carry me off to the sunset ...
The reason why of course,
I don't look like his princess,
I look like his horse. — Rae Earl

Desire to be thin grows bigger and bigger. As does my appetite. — Rae Earl

I need to do SOMETHING to make ME feel better about ME. — Rae Earl

There is a new codeword going round school. DFS. It means 'desperate for sex.' It sounds like you are talking about the furniture shop. For the record, I'm certainly DFS. In fact I am permanently shopping in DFS with no hope of getting out of the store. — Rae Earl

I just don't get men. Mind you, I don't get me either. — Rae Earl

If you are slightly different, if your face doesn't fit, they judge you and consign you and throw away the fucking key.
They never, ever stop to think that THEY might be wrong, that THEY are making a mistake. Don't get me wrong, I haven't been the victim of a massive miscarriage of justice - I'm not saying that - BUT I know what it's like to be stinking judged before people have even bothered to find out what you are about. They have boxed me off into the ugly group even before I have opened my gob.
SOCIETY IS SHIT. — Rae Earl

Stop thinking that other people are going to come and save you. You gotta save yourself. — Rae Earl

I'm so NUMB. I just don't care, it seems-but I must do. This is all going to sound totally incoherent. I'm that bunged up, but totally empty. I think my worries about who I am have reached a head.
I mean who is Rae Earl?
I think I know myself, but then other people say things. — Rae Earl

I'm madly in love with a sculpted piece of testosterone wonder called Haddock — Rae Earl

Sometimes it feels like everything is going wrong. Even with the things that are wrong already. — Rae Earl

Sometimes, you know, I just want to curl up and see if anyone notices I'm not there.
But I know time is short. Moping around wastes times. I always get attacks of paranoia. Big deal. Fed up of worrying what people think of me and they feel for me.
But I wonder what they do feel for me, though. Am I loved? Perhaps in somebody's bedroom I am secretly fancied?
Probably not. — Rae Earl

... but how come I can give advice and cheer up other people, but I can't do that with my own life. I don't understand it. — Rae Earl

What would be the best therapy? Punching the evil sod in the knob! [ ... ]
It doesn't undo it though. You'd feel good for a second and then there's just emptiness. It's like bingeing. After the chocolate there's the wrappers. — Rae Earl

There are times when I can't stop speaking, when a million words leave my mouth in a matter of seconds ... a million words that mean nothing ... but when I want to find some words that mean everything, I just can't speak. Like: I miss you. Like: I love you. Like: My world is falling apart and I need you by my side. — Rae Earl

A levels are approaching and Haddock's backside is a national treasure — Rae Earl