R.K. Lilley Quotes & Sayings

He ran his nose along my jaw, breathing on me. "We're friends, right? This is going well, don't you think?"
The man was demented . "By what criteria are we judging it? If going well means we've both lost our ever-loving minds, then yes, I guess it's going well?! If we're basing it on us being just friends, we're failing epically."
He pulled back from me and grinned. — R.K. Lilley

His shorts hung low and his sweaty, cut to within an inch of its life, pelvic V muscle, was giving a silent but clear invitation to my tongue. — R.K. Lilley

If you can't be civil to my girlfriend you can fucking walk away. — R.K. Lilley

Meet my future. Her name is Bianca. Come to terms with it. My advice would be to get on her good side. — R.K. Lilley

I thought that might have been the worst thing about losing someone, that moment between asleep and awake, when you had to remember and accept the loss again, relive that moment when your life changed, and you lost something dear. — R.K. Lilley

I know I'm not being fair to you here. I know I should let you move on. But I can't. I'll do anything to be with you for a much time as I can. Anything you ask. — R.K. Lilley

I hate you," I told him, quietly and vehemently.
"I hate that I still love you." Just as quiet, just as vehement. Far more destructive ... "I hate that I'll never stop. — R.K. Lilley

Mr. Stalker
Mr. Kinky
Mr. Spellcaster
Mr. Charming
Mr. Personality
Mr. Stalker
Mr. Celebrity
Mr. Beautiful
Mr. Mercurial — R.K. Lilley

How rough can you take it, Lourdes?' he asked, bringing his mouth very close to mine.
I was trying nor to pant. 'I don't know,' I replied honestly. 'Why don't you show me what you got?'
He smiled, and this time, it very nearly reached his eyes. 'You asked for it. — R.K. Lilley

I never thought I'd have the urge to fuck someone to death. — R.K. Lilley

This isn't about letting you stay in control. This is about making you lose your mind. I say when you're ready, and I plan to take my time getting you there. — R.K. Lilley

Love doesn't let you walk away clean. Love is messy. Love takes a fucking piece of you before it's done. — R.K. Lilley

Wall. His forehead touched mine as he gripped my hips, shifting until he was poised back at the core of me. I'm fucking done with this record deal if it means I'm losing your trust. This is forever for me, sweetheart. I want it all with you. You're the thing that gets me up in the morning and lets me rest easy at night. I wouldn't have survived some of the shit these last few months if it weren't for you. You're my rock, Danika, and I need you to trust me. — R.K. Lilley

You can call me Grandpa, if that does it for you. — R.K. Lilley

He knew me that fucking well.
No one on earth should know a person that well.
Lovers should have secrets.
In fact, they need them.
Some part of you should stay a mystery in every relationship. Enough mystery to keep some distance and a bit of perspective. — R.K. Lilley

He nuzzled his face into my ear. "I'm so sorry, sweetheart. I'm so sorry I hurt you. I'd take it all back if I could, but I can't. I will try to make it up to you, though, okay? Please, just give the chance. Please. — R.K. Lilley

We are fundamentally connected. We met when we were broken seeds, when we were still being formed into something. We had to grow together to survive. Some part of us will always be like that, connected, growing together. We're different flowers, but we were nurtured from the same damaged root. — R.K. Lilley

Every inch of you was sent to me from heaven. — R.K. Lilley

Even his voice was unfair. — R.K. Lilley

I felt him sigh against me. "It was. But it didn't mean anything. Please don't use her to keep me at a distance" ... — R.K. Lilley

All of the kids are closely paired up in ages ... Our daughters, Bianca, Tristan's rowdy boys are going to try to take our daughters! I had to get it off my chest. It was too much for any father to have to bear alone. — R.K. Lilley

Yes, you scare me," I told him, after a very long silence, while I processed his answer. "But I'm irrevocably fucked up, so you excite me in equal measures. I find it liberating, to let someone control me ... — R.K. Lilley

It's a wonder I get any fucking thing done, when my mind is always right here, buried in this divine cunt. — R.K. Lilley

He's good in bed, too?" Marnie asked, clearly skeptical. "That just isn't fair. If I looked like him, I'd
never leave my house. I'd just stay home and fuck myself. If you tell me he has a big dick, I might become either a cutter or a lesbian. — R.K. Lilley

He began to work on me with his mouth, making me pant and beg in scant seconds. After coaxing a quick, intense orgasm out of me, he rose. — R.K. Lilley

I thought you loved me. Taking it back so soon? Or is this it then? Have you built up enough of a case to walk away yet? Because I haven't said three fucking words to you that you've taken the meaning out of?
That broke me, because I'd let him see who I was, and all he saw was the worst of me. And even more painful, he seemed ready and willing to let me walk away. — R.K. Lilley

Love, I want you everywhere I go. I'd put you in my pocket, if I could. — R.K. Lilley

The most toxic relationships in life are defined by the way they make us feel about ourselves. — R.K. Lilley

I wanted to trust him with the best of me, the worst of me, and everything in between. — R.K. Lilley

I don't know to this day if I screamed out loud, but deep down in my soul, in the place inside of me that was bursting to be a mother, that pined for it, that lived and breathed for the day that I could give birth to my own child, my own flesh and blood, that part of me screamed, "Noooo!"
It was quite possible that, somewhere deep down, I never stopped screaming it — R.K. Lilley

All we are is proof that love can survive anything. You and I, we're heavy hitters, but even at our worst, we still couldn't break this bond. If you're honest with yourself, we didn't even come close. — R.K. Lilley

I love you," I spoke softly into his ear.
He gripped me harder. "I can't ever lose you, Danika. I'm not sure I'd survive it."
"You've got me. And I'm not going anywhere. Not ever."
I meant the words when I said them, but life had other plans for us.
I was, by nature, a fighter, and no one could say I didn't fight for us.
I'd have given my life for that fight.
In fact, I nearly did. — R.K. Lilley

It was hard to remember that we weren't supposed to feel anything for each other when he looked at me like I was more important than the next breath. — R.K. Lilley

I want you to let go. i want you to submit. I want to make you lose your mind. I want you to be so far gone that the only word left in your vocabulary is my name. — R.K. Lilley

I can't forgive you. I can't and won't trust you again. You betrayed me and it can never be made right again.
Also, I can't forgive myself. The things I did to hurt you, to survive after you left, and of course, the things I did to take revenge for the things you did, have damaged me beyond all repair. — R.K. Lilley

[ ... ] my life has fallen into categories - in spite of everything - gradiatons of her.
Life before Scarlett. Life with Scarlett. Life after Scarlett.
Wanting her.
Needing her.
Having her.
Losing her. — R.K. Lilley

Wear that," he told me.
I didn't protest. It was comfortable enough.
I grabbed a bra and some panties out of my dresser.
He followed me there, digging through the drawer without asking.
"Nice," he said.
"I ordered you a few dozen more pairs. The last line of defensebetween me and your pussy is bound to take some casualties. — R.K. Lilley

I want to share my life with you, to be
monogamous with you, and my past is in the past. I wish there was some way I could prove it to you, once and for all. I do have a sordid past, but I've never lied to any of the women I've been with, and I've never promised to anyone the things I promise to you. — R.K. Lilley

Fuck you. You can't hurt us anymore. Oblivion is too good for you. Enjoy the fire. You've earned it. Your daughter — R.K. Lilley

I wondered how my heart could be both light with happiness and heavy with love at the same time. — R.K. Lilley

There's no room in perfection for insecurity. — R.K. Lilley

I don't care how things stand, every girl wants to feel beautiful when they see 'that ex' again. You know the one I'm talking about. The one that had claimed enough of you that some of it had been lost in the parting. — R.K. Lilley

We'd grown up as godless, savage creatures, believing in nothing so much as each other, and somehow it had always been enough. — R.K. Lilley

Love is like that. It's like a wildfire in my blood. — R.K. Lilley

Cute when you do that. My — R.K. Lilley

He'd done it. He'd gone and flipped the psycho switch in my brain again. — R.K. Lilley

He'd set me adrift, so very long ago, and I had wandered into deepest waters, with depths far too vast for me to navigate alone. And here he was, swimming out to save me. Had he been following me all the while? Had I been so blind? Still, — R.K. Lilley

No one would ever know me like he did. Understand and indulge the darkness and the lightness in me. The good and the bad. The strong and the weak. Take all of the parts of me that were toxic and soothe them with the perfect antidote. We had all of the ingredients of forever love. — R.K. Lilley

I wasn't letting go of this; this mindless moment where everything felt like it had shifted back into place and all of the wrongs were right again. — R.K. Lilley

Never in my life before that moment had I felt a need like this. It was so acute it made my teeth ache. Never had I felt like a bitch in heat, but I did then. I stared at that cock, and I wanted it. Wanted to drop to my knees and beg him for it, any way I could get it, anywhere. — R.K. Lilley

Even masochists need lovers," I told him, my tone gentle. "What would a girl like me do without someone like you? Perhaps everyone is good for someoene. — R.K. Lilley

Danika, sweetheart?" he rasped. "Yes, Tristan?" "I'm done being sweet, if you don't mind. I need to fuck you really hard now, if that's okay. — R.K. Lilley

Everyone should get to experience a love like that. That kind of love that makes us better people. — R.K. Lilley

You're so perfect," I murmured to him as we came up for air. "I can't believe you're all mine."
His laugh was rough and breathless. "I'm as far from perfect as a person can get, but I am all yours. — R.K. Lilley

I do believe in love ... I believe it's the most destructive force on earth. — R.K. Lilley

... I processed that. Stephan was gay. He had told me as much. And she had told me that they were purely platonic. I believed them both. Why does she seek him out in her sleep? Were they really so close? A part of me was insanely jealous at the thought that he was that important to her, but I knew instinctively that I couldn't indulge that jealousy. The two of them were too close to tolerate anyone coming between them, and I wouldn't be making that mistake. — R.K. Lilley

Life hurts. As long as it doesn't kill us, we weather it. — R.K. Lilley

You feel so good sweetheart. I swear nothing's ever felt better in my whole fucking life. — R.K. Lilley

I know what you taste like," I interrupted, my tone harsh. "I know how it feels to have you come against my tongue. What it feels like to have you clench around my cock while you lose your fucking mind. And you, you've tasted me. I've shoved my cock so deep down your throat I felt your tonsils, Danika. Are we going to forget all of that? — R.K. Lilley

I can't change my past, Bianca. All I can do is be honest with you, and I've done my best. — R.K. Lilley

There is this hollow place inside of me, where my faith in you used to be. — R.K. Lilley

My weakness and my strength, my purpose and my distraction, my redemption and my undoing. — R.K. Lilley

We were on the patio, Tristan grilling us burgers, as we watched the kids playing in the their park of a backyard.
... I pointed a Nikolaj, huddled together with Imogen. "No fucking way," I told Tristan. "That right there is not happening."
He curled his lip at me, waving a hand at Cleo and Duncan. They were holding hands. They were only six, but that wasn't the point. "What about that right there? What the ever-loving fuck is up with that? I'll tell you right now I won't stand for it. — R.K. Lilley

I thought that I'd found my new favorite hobby - watching Tristan cook anything at all.
"Bev has this really great frilly pink apron," I told him. "What would I have to do to get you to wear
it while you cook for me?"
"You don't even want to know, boo," he said.
That effectively shut me up again. — R.K. Lilley

That will get you fucked in a hurry, Love. — R.K. Lilley

We were drifting apart. I felt helpless to stop the pattern, but still, I held onto him for dear life. — R.K. Lilley

I liked to think I had a tough everything, but I did have one weakness. One. In my entire child/woman body, and we both knew it. Dante. He was the chink in my armor. My soft underbelly. — R.K. Lilley

Don't leave us again, Lana," he whispered roughly. "Don't leave me. Stay. Please. — R.K. Lilley

In private, though, you may call me Mr. Cavendish — R.K. Lilley

This is all yours right here. All of me. No one else gets a thing from me, you understand? I wouldn't do that to you. I wouldn't make all these promises if I didn't intend to keep them. — R.K. Lilley

I also found it particularly encouraging that the decent people in his life were now outnumbering the crazy bitches — R.K. Lilley

This is ridiculous. I wouldn't ask that of you. I would be distraught if you even suggested it. You aren't just my sub, Bianca. This is much more than just a physical relationship. I feel utterly possessive of you. If someone touched you the way I touch you, male or female, I would lose my mind. — R.K. Lilley

I knew I had a problem. I was starting to like that kinky rich bastard. — R.K. Lilley

Hell yeah," Danika — R.K. Lilley

These young folks, with that twerking, I thought, just like an old fart. — R.K. Lilley

I can never go back from this, Bianca. It would break me to let you go. You know that, right? — R.K. Lilley

Always trust your gut, even when it makes you feel like a total bitch. — R.K. Lilley

Here's all you need to know about crazy: Crazy's favorite shape is a circle. Broken records, crazy urges on a loop. Any of this ring a bell? That's how crazy works, and why it keeps repeating itself. — R.K. Lilley

Because that's how love works. It doesn't die, even when you don't feed it. That's just the way it is. I wouldn't change it, even if I could. Loving her has become a part of who I am. — R.K. Lilley

Having a love that was endangered made it all the more precious. — R.K. Lilley

Is that where you draw the line? I'll never understand why some things are more taboo than others."
"And that's what makes you so kinky, the fact that you don't see the difference. — R.K. Lilley

An exquisite flower for my exquisite girl. — R.K. Lilley

Where there is love there is forever, — R.K. Lilley

He lay down beside me, pulling me back to his chest and throwing his arm over me. "Mine," he whispered in my ear. — R.K. Lilley

Somewhere, in the great expanse of space,
There is a home where souls reside,
Yours and mine were joined together
I have not moved from that place,
God help me, I'll never move from that place
But there was a poison in my heart,
And a darkness in my mind
I wasn't there when you were drowning
Though I'd give my soul to take it back
You had to leave me behind — R.K. Lilley

Two cops Tasered me at the same time once, and it barely phased me. — R.K. Lilley

Please. I don't make sense with you and you don't make sense without me and you know it. we only ever worked together. — R.K. Lilley

The things he made me feel had opened a floodgate, and the damned thing wouldn't close. — R.K. Lilley

(Logic meet feelings. The two of you will never see eye to eye. Let the lifelong catfight commence.) — R.K. Lilley

You're my favorite subject, Love. I'll start with your eyes. I fell in love with those first. One look was like a punch to the guy. You have these ageless eyes on such a young face. I just knew that you had seen bad things, and from the start, I knew that you could understand pain. Understand feeling hopeless and helpless and alone. I fell in love with your eyes first because I looked into their depths and saw the other half of my soul. — R.K. Lilley

He smiled his best smile, the one that ruined me for every other smile in the world. — R.K. Lilley

Bianca, one of the quieter members of the group, shocked us all by butting in. That's just not true. — R.K. Lilley

The bastard had made my underwear disappear. — R.K. Lilley

Both of my trembling hands went up to cup her perfect, oh so beloved face. My voice was somehow steadier than my hands as I asked her my question. Do you love me at least as much as you hate me? — R.K. Lilley

I'd be alone the rest of my life before I'd settle for less than a man that flat out adored me. — R.K. Lilley

Allowed him to size them to my long, thin calves — R.K. Lilley

You don't need to follow every impulse in life; you don't need to take on every gamble. But some, even ones that have burned you before, well some of them you do. Some of the sweetest moments in life come from second chances. — R.K. Lilley

Where Bianca was I had a right to be. This was the order of the universe. — R.K. Lilley

Is it possible I'm not as sexy as I think I am? — R.K. Lilley

I had fallen in love with a perfect lie. — R.K. Lilley