Josh Lanyon Quotes & Sayings

When I get back to L.A. I'm going to buy myself a Blackberry and a slew of French-cuffed shirts. Possibly a nipple ring. — Josh Lanyon

It was nearly five before Jake walked in. He was sunburnt, wet, and smelled faintly of fish. Sexy as hell. Don't ask me to explain. — Josh Lanyon

I turned back to the television. After a while what I was staring at registered. "Hey, this is The Long Goodbye."
Jake opened his eyes. "What?"
"This movie. It's Robert Altman's take on Chandler's The Long Goodbye. 'Nothing says good-bye like a bullet.'"
"I don't know," said Jake. "Sometimes the words are enough. — Josh Lanyon

Rachel delivered it like an official pronouncement. Like she was one of the fairies gifting Sleeping Beauty's christening: Beauty. Intelligence. Heterosexual. — Josh Lanyon

My mother made a sound that from a lesser woman would have been a snort. — Josh Lanyon

I can't figure out where you put all that," Tucker observed. "You eat like a horse." "It goes straight to my cock — Josh Lanyon

What the hell are you doing?"
I smiled, thinking how odd it was that he was the only person in the world I could say this to. "I'm scared."
He was staring at me. "No way. I've never known anyone with more guts than you."
"We're just not afraid of the same things. — Josh Lanyon

Only in academia did people talk such bullshit and expect to be taken seriously — Josh Lanyon

Had it only been a year? It had seemed much longer. Sometimes it had seemed like a lifetime. But maybe all lifetimes weren't measured in hours, days, and years. — Josh Lanyon

He despised violence. He believed he was smarter than that, better than that. A civilized man. After seeing Martin Pink in the flesh again - he knew just how thin the veneer of civilization was. — Josh Lanyon

See! He likes you," Natalie said triumphantly.
I stared down at the scrawny scrap of fur cautiously sniffing my hand.
"He doesn't like me. He thinks I'm going to feed him."
"Now who's being a cynic? Anyway, every bookstore should have a cat."
The cat
assuming it was a cat and not some beige bug-eyed refugee from outer space
slunk uneasily down the counter, and flinched at the flutter of Mystery Scene pages as a gust of warm air blew in from the street. — Josh Lanyon

Like fine wine, I do not travel well. Sure, when I was young, fresh, low in acidity and not so tannic, I was a more adventurous spririt. — Josh Lanyon

We were locked onto each other as though we had just discovered this incredible thing you could do with two mouths pressing close and moist against each other. And the taste of him ... Horrifyingly, unbearably sweet
sweet in the way crack must feel hitting the bloodstream of an addict after years of staying clean. — Josh Lanyon

You look thirty. You act ... well, never mind. You're carrying on like you think you're seventy." Was I? I guess it was no secret I'd been unpleasantly startled to find myself suddenly hitting the big 4-0. You'd have thought the previous thirty-nine years were sufficient warning. I glanced at his profile. "Okay. Maybe I'm a little hung up on the age thing. You have to admit gay culture is youth-oriented. — Josh Lanyon

I guess it was no secret I'd been unpleasantly startled to find myself suddenly hitting the big 4-0. You'd have thought the previous thirty-nine years were sufficient warning. — Josh Lanyon

We all have our methods for coping and they usually happen behind closed doors. — Josh Lanyon

Knowing and believing are two different things. — Josh Lanyon

Wanda's sole interests are getting high and getting laid. I can't picture her wasting valuable stoner hours on murder. — Josh Lanyon

First of all, ideas aren't the hard part. Secondly, there are no new ideas, only the author's unique execution. — Josh Lanyon

Last night they hadn't even fucked. What the hell was the point of protective custody if you weren't at least going to get to have sex with your protector? — Josh Lanyon

-Kit-He said my name again and again.Just ... Kit.We held each other tight,rocking,trying to milk the last drops of sensation.Wring the last flashes of lightening.Riders on the storm. — Josh Lanyon

What the hell was it that people loved so much about the great outdoors? It was just one fatal accident after another waiting to happen. — Josh Lanyon

This is how God made me. You are how God made you. All God's chillun are made how God made 'em. You think God made a mistake, take it up with Him. — Josh Lanyon

You think I'm with you out of guilt?"
"No, you ass. Of course not. I just mean - "
"You're a nut, MacAllister. I'm with you because I love you."
There it was, out. Three little words. Three of the most common words in the world, but string them together and they were more powerful than any warrant, any extradition papers, or even treaty. Stronger than any magical spell. Had he really never said them aloud to Taylor? — Josh Lanyon

Kit, you're forty. You look thirty. You act ... well, never mind. You're carrying on like you think you're seventy — Josh Lanyon

People loved you in the way they knew how - and often it was not the way you knew. Or needed. — Josh Lanyon

Laroche was wrong about that, wrong about men not understanding love.
Anyway, most of the romantic poems and songs and paintings in the world were by men, so what was she talking about? — Josh Lanyon

There was always one person more devoted than the other in a relationship, right? — Josh Lanyon

Jake fried up the fish, cooked rice with garlic, cilantro and green onions. Someday he was going to make some woman a wonderful wife. — Josh Lanyon

Do you have someone you can stay with? Hell, stay with your mother. The Pentagon doesn't have the security system she's got."
I really would rather die. "I'm not putting my mother in the path of a serial killer. Thanks for the thought."
"God help the serial killer who tackles your mother," Riordan muttered. — Josh Lanyon

I know that asshole you were with in college
"
"Can we leave that asshole out of it?"
Please, gentlemen, one asshole at a time. — Josh Lanyon

The problem with a life spent reading is you know too much. — Josh Lanyon

I was surprised he didn't just spit the nails into the wood like Popeye the Sailor Man. — Josh Lanyon

They took turns kissing necks and ears and stubbled chins. He had never found or expected gentleness from Tucker, but here it was, his for the asking. His even if he didn't know how to ask. — Josh Lanyon

She shrugged another plump shoulder. "I never listened to Porter when he got going."
Ah. At last. The secret to a successful marriage. — Josh Lanyon

Look, Paul. I appreciate what you're telling me, but I gave Jake my word. Not to mention the fact, he'd throw my ass in jail if he found out I tried to go around him."
"He wouldn't, you know," he said. "Jake's a pussycat."
Yeah, just a big old saber-toothed tiger. — Josh Lanyon

The moonlight streaming through the sheer draperies revealed Taylor smiling, boneless and peaceful in Will's embrace. The most dangerous man Will knew rested sweetly in his arms, trusting him with his love as he trusted Will to guard his life. It was beyond precious. Life, love, was made up of fragile moments like these. Fragile as Paris moonlight. — Josh Lanyon

To find them all in one package ... well, perhaps better not to dwell on his package in my fragile state. — Josh Lanyon

Maybe he had a gaydar anti-cloaking device. — Josh Lanyon

That's the thing about sex. So much of it is just plain awkward, clumsy, are-you-sure-this-is-going-to-fit-I-think-they-forgot-to-include-the-washers. — Josh Lanyon

You were the first in every way that counted. — Josh Lanyon

A pause followed my greeting. Then "We're watching you " whispered the voice on the other end.
"Yeah? Did you see what I did with my keys? "
Silence. Then dial tone.
These younger demons. So easily discouraged. — Josh Lanyon

I deliberately ignored the sight of lean brown body cutting through the aqua water, glistening powerful arms dipping slow and steady in perfect rhythm with the strong kick of his long tanned legs.
I was going to have to work on my ignoring technique.
- Tim trying to ignore Jack in the swimming pool. — Josh Lanyon

He needed fresh air and sunshine. A walk in the woods and afterward a good book to read by the fire.
Yeah, that was the life. — Josh Lanyon

You feel rain in a used bookstore. The old pages pick up the damp and mustiness like old bones do rheumatism. — Josh Lanyon

I don't want to get hurt again. That's true. A week ago we weren't on speaking terms. Now you think you love me. And I don't want to hurt you either. I'm not looking for a steady boyfriend right now. — Josh Lanyon

I didn't believe we had ever been this tentative - not even in the very beginning. Perhaps especially not in the very beginning. We have each other plenty of time for second thoughts, for a change of heart. We were polite with the buttons and respectful of the zippers. And all the while we watched each other's face, eyes locked. — Josh Lanyon

If you want. It's not really your kind of thing," Perry said. "It's a snow globe. You know, a big old house and lots of Vermont snow. I thought it might remind you of me."
"I don't need a snow globe to remind me of you," Nick said, which was probably the most romantic thing he had ever heard himself say. It made him blush. — Josh Lanyon

Welcome to the closet, I thought, is it dark in here or is just me — Josh Lanyon

I noticed you right away." She gave me an approving look. "I like quiet, polite men. And men who wear Hugo Boss. I was hoping you weren't gay. Or that you were only half-gay. Like Paul."
"Uh ... sorry," I said. "It's pretty much full-time now. The pay's not great, but the perks ... — Josh Lanyon

A muscle moved in Tucker's jaw. He said, You mean you want berating space. I breath better when you are close by. — Josh Lanyon

Did he want to put a cock ring on me or did he fear I wanted to put a wedding ring on him? — Josh Lanyon

Passionate kisses, the intoxicating exchange of breath and saliva - and something more intimate - something there was no real name for, like a spark catching between us and taking light.
How could I forgotten this? How had I been satisfied with anything else?
Guy ... Mel ... it was like choosing celluloid kisses over the real thing. The real thing was raw and powerful and dangerous ... but it was the real thing. Had I really believed I could make do with safe substitutes? — Josh Lanyon

Like true philosophers I've come to believe that religion is an illusion of childhood, outgrown after proper education. — Josh Lanyon

You say potato, I say potahto." "I say rice pilaf. I say you're trying to distract me with talk of side dishes. — Josh Lanyon

I thought again how odd it was to be on formal terms with someone you had once permitted to lick your ears. — Josh Lanyon

I gave a helpless laugh. "Damned if I know. I think ... we seem to have reached impasse.
I feel betrayed by your friendship with Verlane. I realize that's not logical. I realize that if I'd made the mistakes Verlane has made, I'd want my friends to stand by me, hope that someone would help me when the time came. I just ... "
"What?"
I met his eyes. "I just need to come first for someone, Guy. — Josh Lanyon

It was dark." "I'd know you in the dark, Tucker." Tucker's eyes flashed up to meet Elliot's. He said curtly. "Yeah. I'd know you too. — Josh Lanyon

I never meant to get involved with you, Adrien. Rest easy; you're not. — Josh Lanyon

You got a little bit of an attitude, Mr. English, if you don't mind my saying so. I don't mind. — Josh Lanyon

'What about stress? Are you using your stress-management techniques when things seem to be getting on top of you?' 'Nothing is getting on top of me.' As I said it, a totally inappropriate picture popped into my mind. 'What are you feeling?' Jake's breath warm against my face, my bruised lips tingling from his kisses. 'Tell me what it feels like with me inside you.' — Josh Lanyon

Not as intolerable as being dead, in my opinion, but I'm very fond of me. I would miss me a lot. — Josh Lanyon

It wasn't merely fatigue. although it continued to worry me how tired i was all the time. I had a strange sense of missing something, of being in the wrong place - no matter where I was. — Josh Lanyon

But we all hurt the people we love sometimes. We all let each other down sooner or later. Which is why contrition and forgiveness played a part in any relationship. Trying not to hurt each other, trying not to let each other down in the big things, that was as much as anyone could aim for. — Josh Lanyon

Tucker said so softly the words were almost inaudible, You're wrong, you know. I would let you get away with murder. Hell, I'd probably help you commit it, if that's what you wanted ... — Josh Lanyon

Some guys say it with flowers," Tucker said. "I bring you arson reports. — Josh Lanyon

Okay, baby?
Riordan was walking toward me. I realized he was talking to me. — Josh Lanyon

They will rue the day," Tucker growled. — Josh Lanyon

His knee was killing him, was not going to support him for much longer, but of far greater importance seemed the erection shoving against the constriction of his jeans. Biological imperative. — Josh Lanyon

He wouldn't spend another standing in the darkness, hot and sick and shaking inside with a confused mess of feelings that weren't worth analyzing. That he shouldn't have felt anyway.
With Rachel gone it was like balancing on the edge of a cliff - and all the little wildflowers, the netting of grass and roots that kept the cliff from sliding into the sea below, were gone. It was just Matt standing there looking down, waiting to fall.
Even Rachel's memory, the sweet recollection of all they had built, all they had shared, was no longer strong enough to fight gravity. From the moment he had looked across the wet grass and seen Nathan Doyle standing in the shadow of a stone saber-toothed tiger, something had changed inside him. Something battened down had torn free, like a sail taking its first deep breath of sea air.
It terrified him.
And at the same time it exhilarated him.
Which terrified him all the more. — Josh Lanyon

I didn't approve of murder on general principles. Not even of people who seemed to go around begging for it. — Josh Lanyon

Emma sat up very straight in the saddle. Her eyes were huge, but she said bravely, "I could do it!"
"I know you can."
"I wasn't afraid."
"There's nothing wrong with being afraid," I told her. "It's how you handle it. — Josh Lanyon

I can't "Think of a nicer way to commit suicde."
That's good."I can't think of a better way to commit murder — Josh Lanyon

He scooped up Victoria practically before she hit the ground, well within the five-second rule. If she'd been a potato chip, he could have still eaten her. Not something I particularly wanted to contemplate. — Josh Lanyon

Vintage books, old china, antiques; maybe I love old things so much because I feel impermanent myself. — Josh Lanyon

I know you've all heard the advice, "Show, don't tell." The best writers don't tell you, and quite frankly they don't just show you
they make you feel it, live it, taste it, touch it. Storytelling is about being in the moment with the characters. — Josh Lanyon

'Yeah,' he said with slow satisfaction. 'You need it bad. Worse than I do.'
I gasped, 'Is it a competition? What do I win?'
'Shh. Turn off for a few seconds, Adrien.'
'A few seconds? Is that all it's
' I caught my breath as his finger moved knowledgeably, unerringly.
'There's the off button,' he murmured. — Josh Lanyon

Anyone who wasn't half-stoned on pain meds would have instantly realized what a really bad idea this plan was, but since that didn't include me, I didn't worry about it. — Josh Lanyon

I think it was the ChapStick that did it; he tasted like ChapStick and Jack Daniels. That reminder of human vulnerability got to me in a way that polished experience wouldn't have. Not that he had lied about the experience. — Josh Lanyon

Do you still do the clubs?"
Jake shakes his head. "You do the clubs
because you can't find what you need at home. I've got everything I need. I've got the answer to needs I didn't even know I had. — Josh Lanyon

He was probably selfish in the sack. Probably selfish and greedy and ... unsophisticated. And hung like a horse. — Josh Lanyon

No one was in better position than I to know how easily shyness gets misread for arrogance or coldness or indifference. — Josh Lanyon

Well, Hodge, wasn't the brightest candle on the birthday cake. — Josh Lanyon

Have I ever told you, you look like Monty Clift? he inquired in a deep, seductive voice.
Before or after the accident? — Josh Lanyon

Rick said, "Is there some place we can go and talk?"
"You want to talk?," Keir raised an eyebrow. "I never thought I'd see the day."
"Nah, I want to tell you this joke I heard."
Keir nodded, patient. "Shoot."
"Two Irish cops walk into a bar. The first cop says ... " Rick's voice dropped. He said gruffly, "I love you. Come home."
Keir managed to keep his voice steady. "What's the other cop say?"
The sweetness of Rick's smile was like a kick in his chest. "That's what I'm here to find out, boyo. — Josh Lanyon

Then, like a born and bred asshole, he added to the sheriff, He writes murder mysteries. — Josh Lanyon

I do not want this cat. No, Nat. Not in a hat. Not in my flat. Not in the store, not anymore, just out the door.
if you please. — Josh Lanyon

Will stared at him with utter disbelief. "Am I really supposed to answer that? What do you think I want? I want you." He added bitterly, "Who wouldn't want you? Seeing you're so sweet-tempered and understanding. — Josh Lanyon

Maybe that was what grown-up life was really about. Doing what everyone else thought you should do. — Josh Lanyon

When was the last time anyone in these parts had been attacked by a bear or a mountain
lion? It was possible, but not probable, right? Maybe it was something harmless. A deer or a
stray cow. Or a really big rabbit. — Josh Lanyon

Most people don't fall out of love at the same time. One person always wants more than the other person can give them. And that ends in bitterness. — Josh Lanyon

And why is it the best looking ones are always straight? — Josh Lanyon

Hearts got broken every day. Nobody died from that. But it did kind of fade the sunlight and drain the color from the days. — Josh Lanyon

Planning on staying?"
"Just till you wise up."
"I'm flattered you think that's a possibility."
"Yeah, well it's lucky I've rolled a lot of vacation. — Josh Lanyon

Yes," I clipped out, "I know. Hurt happens."
I heard that long, weary exhalation.
"It does. That's life. It's the good and the bad, the ugly and the beautiful, the wins and the losses. I never thought you'd be too afraid to try. I though you were stronger than that. — Josh Lanyon

I couldn't see him putting up with the restraints and discipline of being a Bottom - he wouldn't have been able to remember half the rules - and no sane person would allow Rob to be his Top. — Josh Lanyon

But that peek into his uncensored brain made it clear he too realized there was a good chance things weren't going to work out for us, that the idea of it not working out was already in his mind, and in some corner of his heart he was already preparing for it. And since I was already preparing to prepare for it too, I'm not sure why it made me so sad. But it did. It was like someone cut my lifeline. — Josh Lanyon

Jake's mouth found mine, his lips molding hot and soft to my own. His tongue tentatively tested the seal of my lips; I parted them and he pushed inside. It was startlingly sweet and achingly familiar, like finding harbor. — Josh Lanyon

You're not sure because you're feeling pretty stiff and achy, and — Josh Lanyon

We ate in the dining room alcove looking over the hillside and the silent dark rooftops of my neighbors. The lights of the valley glittered below.
We were both tired but we smiled at each other, and I felt a kind of happiness growing inside me. It was good to look across the table and see someone, and I thought maybe it was time to start thinking about that again - about finding someone. Sharing my life maybe.
Or maybe just getting more friends around. Except when I pictured the friends I wanted around, they all looked like Dan, and when I thought about trying to find someone to share my life with, he too looked a little too much like Dan for comfort. — Josh Lanyon