C.D. Reiss Quotes & Sayings

Drazen's lips were more than lips; they were the physical memory of myself before I shut out sex to pursue music. — C.D. Reiss

The problem is this. When you dominate me, I'm in love. But when I submit, your love dies. — C.D. Reiss

All I could think about was fucking. Fucking swell. I hated my needs. For the first time, they seemed more of a burden than an indelible character trait. — C.D. Reiss

They were an unworthy means to a worthy end. — C.D. Reiss

Our relationship was too serious to forget and move on, and too casual to get upset over him fucking his ... — C.D. Reiss

I had no words, and I always had words. — C.D. Reiss

Bend over the sink. I'm going to show you who owns what around here. — C.D. Reiss

I haven't fucked anyone in my life as hard as I'm going to fuck you right now. — C.D. Reiss

I walk like an ocean wave, and I sing like a storm. My voice is a force of its own, and I let it loose like a hurricane. — C.D. Reiss

Was this kid ever going to be a man? — C.D. Reiss

It's all I want. We are bound. I can't be unfaithful to you any more than the sky can be unfaithful to the sea. — C.D. Reiss

God, that piece of meat between his legs was a beautiful sight. — C.D. Reiss

I didn't know what we were saying to each other. We were just battering rams of hurt and betrayal. — C.D. Reiss

Not loving him hurt me. I didn't leave to find someone else. I left because he was there, every day, reminding me I'd lost something I cherished. I — C.D. Reiss

Were you feeling all right?"
"No, not at all."
"Bellyache?"
"Yeah, a two-month bellyache called Vivian-itis. Symptoms include desperate longing and inability to do anything but feel like a douchebag. Patient can't do shit on the field but stand there like an ass, wondering what the fuck he's doing with his life. It's chronic. No known cure. — C.D. Reiss

You dress for the world, but under that, you dress for me. I own your softest places, and what touches them is mine. — C.D. Reiss

Jonathan Drazen," I said, squeezing his hand. "You're a manipulative bastard, a brazen liar, and a sadist. You've brought me to my knees. You've dominated me. You've told me who I am and then challenged me to be it. If you made me strong enough to stand up to the world, let me stand by you. If you completed the woman I am, let me be that woman in your honor. Every part of my body is dedicated to you. Every note I sing. Every breath in my lungs. My pleasure and pain. Take me. Let me serve you. Let me be yours. — C.D. Reiss

I watched him put his fingers to his lips and blow me a kiss before shaking his hand as if I was too hot to handle. — C.D. Reiss

I feel your hands on your phone when you read my texts. I
go to the Stock after your shifts just to stand where you've stood. I fall asleep on the pillow you used
when you were in my bed. I need to share whatever piece of the world you're in. Tell me you don't
feel the same. — C.D. Reiss

I was many things. I was submissive. I was masochistic. I was trusting. I was a sexual slave. But obedient? Not as much. — C.D. Reiss

I told my love, I told her all my heart, Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears - Ah, she doth depart. — C.D. Reiss

I'm human, It's a terminal condition — C.D. Reiss

He was from upstate New York. Albany or something. A small city so buried in snow it looked flat white in satellite pictures for a third of the year. — C.D. Reiss

I always wanted you. — C.D. Reiss

There is no world without you in it. Nothing. I'm not talking about despair. I've lost people. This isn't me being a child. There is one universe. Just one. And it's between us. If you destroy that universe, you destroy me. Do you understand what I'm saying? — C.D. Reiss

An honorable man would have given her up before she fell in love, choosing a small hurt over a bigger one later. But I wasn't that honorable. I wanted her more than I'd wanted anything in a long time, and I would have her until she couldn't bear it any longer. — C.D. Reiss

I kept replaying it. That moment when you let me. Couldn't add and subtract worth a dime. I'm sure I overpaid the man. — C.D. Reiss

You like this?" he said, thrusting with every word. "You like this. Worthless. Street. Punk. Fucking. You? — C.D. Reiss

You'd be a part of my life. My world. You'd get hard and cunning to survive, or you'd stay gentle and die. — C.D. Reiss

I didn't pretend I was ever going to live under a bridge. I didn't pretend bad shit didn't exist. I didn't pretend I didn't live in some wider world. I got it. I had a television. I had the internet. But what was I supposed to do? Devote my life to serving the poor? Take away all the suffering in the world? — C.D. Reiss

They were symptoms of another disease. I needed to become a man unburdened by love. — C.D. Reiss

Graze on my lips, and if those hills be dry, stray lower where the pleasant fountains lie — C.D. Reiss

He'd taken my armor, carefully unlocked it, slipped it off, and hidden it. — C.D. Reiss

Even in broad daylight, he was so sallow, he looked like a black-and-white picture pasted into a Kodachrome world. At night, he was barely even visible. — C.D. Reiss

Just because I fucked you like a husband this afternoon doesn't mean you're in charge. — C.D. Reiss

How straight you are for the world, and how you bend and cry for me. I want to go so deep in you we have the same thoughts. — C.D. Reiss

I owned him. I made this beautiful man gasp in my ear. His pleasure was mine, and my pain was his. — C.D. Reiss

He was almost out, but being a man, he needed the last word. Slut. — C.D. Reiss

I didn't need one so pissed at his ex-wife he'd make me fall in love with him before apologizing for leading me on. He wanted to hurt women, and nothing froze my creative juices like heartache. — C.D. Reiss

But he didn't know how to take my repression, wring it out, and throw it out the window. He didn't know how to fuck it out of me or quietly tell me to get undressed in the night air while he watched in such a way that wouldn't make me laugh. I couldn't have given Kevin my orgasms, because he didn't want them. I could never have asked him to hurt me, because he would have. — C.D. Reiss

He was pure sex with a side of fun. — C.D. Reiss

Don't put me in a position where I have to defend myself against this again. — C.D. Reiss

Are you coming?" Aunt Bette said from the other side of the door. "No, I - " Already came. I stopped myself mid-sentence before I blurted it out. — C.D. Reiss

I'll break you with my love and put you back together. — C.D. Reiss

Without you, this part of myself that's open now isn't an opportunity. It's an open wound. Every time you shut down, it bleeds. — C.D. Reiss

Nothing. You need nothing. I provide you with what you need, and what I don't provide, you don't need. Think of it as a vacation from adulthood. — C.D. Reiss

Amateur comes from the Latin agent amatus. To love. Never worry about love. Love delivers. It's the incompetent professionals that'll screw you. — C.D. Reiss

Your eyes speak truths you don't. — C.D. Reiss

She obviously didn't realize the depth and breadth of the stories I could tell without touching the things I didn't want her to know. — C.D. Reiss

You're not going to put a bag over my head, are you? — C.D. Reiss

My darkest desires were for an inaccessible normality. — C.D. Reiss

I wanted his soul inside me, a melding of skin where we touched, an unbroken circle of pulsing attention and awareness. — C.D. Reiss

For fuck's sake, I'd killed my best friend, first with carelessness and then with ambition. I started texting back: - you have the wrong ... But then i felt his lips on my shoulder and his warm breath on my skin, and my sorrow dropped out of me. I couldn't finish. My chest hitched and heaved, and the tears came so hard I couldn't breathe. His arms held me tight from behind, and his voice twisted itself into little nothings of comfort. I went into a timeless blackness where I let everything spill out, because he'd catch it. I knew in every couch and sob, ever hitched breath and chest spasm, that he'd hold me together. Whatever fell apart, he'd put right. I couldn't curse him for not being everything I needed or failing to commit to me completely. I didn't have space to reject his idea that I was submissive or the will to deny him control over me. He was there, and he was exactly what I needed. — C.D. Reiss

Good-bye. I'm sorry," I said.
"Don't be sorry." He stood straight, his chin proud and his shoulders relaxed. "This isn't over. — C.D. Reiss

My sexual arousal had always been tightly tethered to love, romance, the promise of something more. A future. — C.D. Reiss

She'd missed the entire point and hit the bullseye. — C.D. Reiss

I'd been the perfect example of ignorance. I didn't know what made them love each other because I didn't understand love. — C.D. Reiss

I had to have her, and I did. She got on her knees when I told her to. She slipped easily into play and out again, becoming her witty, intelligent self seamlessly. She wasn't intimidated by me. She teased and challenged me. She kissed like she meant it, and from the very first night, she enjoyed fucking without reservation or shame. Monica was, in a word, perfect. — C.D. Reiss

I'd dodged a bullet but fallen onto a knife. — C.D. Reiss

You turned on?" He asked. "Yes." "If I do anything that changes that, you let me know." I nodded. "I didn't hear that." "Yes." "Yes what?" At once, I rebelled against the suggestion that I call him by an honorary, but at the same time, I wanted desperately to complete the act of surrender. "Yes, sir." "You just gave me a little palpitation." "I am at your service. — C.D. Reiss

My God. You have the heart of a capo, do you know that? You could have brought Sicily to its knees. No don would stand against you. — C.D. Reiss

Because I'm human. It's human to care." "But it's not your job. — C.D. Reiss

I just kept telling myself I didn't want you, but we said no lies, and I think that includes lying to myself. How about you? — C.D. Reiss

Being under him, trapped, objectified, I lost all fear. With Jonathan, I felt safe. I felt a loss of control so complete, a surrender so honest that it became a luxurious indulgence. — C.D. Reiss

I'll understand you, kitten. You and I, we're going to speak without speaking. — C.D. Reiss

I knew I wasn't thinking right, that I was little more than a jumble of emotions and half sentences. I thought in colors, and saw in bursts of silence. — C.D. Reiss

My brain might have been high on fuckjuice, but that didn't make me stupid. — C.D. Reiss

Don't react. Stay still. Look down. Blink. Produce spit. Breathe. Swallow. Fucking breathe. — C.D. Reiss

I thought of Dante. His hells were the excess of our desires and, in the deepest circles, the pain of our victims. — C.D. Reiss

But against all the odds, against even the laws of physics and logic, we did. — C.D. Reiss

My heart." It's a stupid come on, but I'm a girl. I can get away with it. — C.D. Reiss

What is wrong with me? How can I find pleasure from this man who is holding me against my will? What kind of sick, fucked up person am I? How can I even remotely be turned on? — C.D. Reiss

I wanted to feel good, if only for a minute, and to forget everything for as long as it took us to be bind together and fall apart. I hadn't earned it, but I wanted it. — C.D. Reiss

We can pretend this never happened."
"Up to you." He touched my cheek with his fingertips, and I felt like an electrical cable to my nervous system went live. "I wouldn't mind finishing the job."
"Let's not promise each other anything."
"All right. No promises," he said. — C.D. Reiss

It was as if, in that laugh, they accepted me. They didn't, I knew that, but it was my moment. — C.D. Reiss

I own you. Like the sky owns the stars. You are mine. He slipped the gold key ring on my finger. — C.D. Reiss

Fuck me and my inability to love him. — C.D. Reiss

More than wanting you for myself, I want you to have a good life. — C.D. Reiss

I trust you to do what's right. But it might not be the right thing." "It's the right thing. — C.D. Reiss

You turned my existence into a life. — C.D. Reiss

Jonathan?" "Monica." "One day this will stop working." "But not today. — C.D. Reiss

Mostly, I expected to look at him and wonder how he could make a slave of a woman who could have any man she wanted. — C.D. Reiss

He only said the one word. A prayer. A supplication. A breath from his heart to mine. — C.D. Reiss

Do you hate your husband?" "I never hated him." "You're about to. — C.D. Reiss

Tomorrow I'm going to destroy you. I'm going to mark your body and ruin your mind. By noon, you won't know whether to laugh or cry. But tonight? Tonight I will revere you. I will build an altar of myself. I will frame you in stars. — C.D. Reiss

You are my life. It doesn't matter what I am, or what I've done, as long as you're mine. Nothing in the past matters. There is you, and nothing else." He didn't look at me but kept his eyes on his work. A cluster of taller buildings appeared ahead, and he headed for them. "My one job," he said, holding up a finger, "is to make sure you know how to protect yourself when they finally kill me. — C.D. Reiss

God,' he said, 'I have to have you.'
'Take me. Own me. Use me. Pick a verb. Just please.'
'Fuck you. I'm going to fuck you. That's my verb. — C.D. Reiss

I wanted control over her body as I've never wanted anything before. But she wouldn't. Not this girl. No time. Got to get to work. Got to argue. Got to talk about fear. — C.D. Reiss

I'm yours. My pleasure is yours. My wet pussy is yours. You own me, Jonathan. You are the master of my fuck. — C.D. Reiss

I've never needed lubricant unless I'm getting it in the ass. — C.D. Reiss

She couldn't just take her pleasure and go on with her life. She had a bare minimum expression of love, and it was the love her father had for her. She wouldn't take anything less. And why should she? She deserved the best a man had to offer. — C.D. Reiss

My list of acceptable and unacceptable behaviors became a list of exciting possibilities. — C.D. Reiss

Some things are in the stars. I was meant to protect you. And you were meant to rule. — C.D. Reiss

I want to be normal." "Jesus Christ. You might as well want to be taller. Normal wasn't the hand you were dealt. You and I, we're not normal. That's not a choice we have. — C.D. Reiss

I'm not in the mood to die. — C.D. Reiss

Too much slap, not enough tickle. — C.D. Reiss

When you get divorced, you don't just give up the person, you give up all the dreams you had with that person. — C.D. Reiss

Your madness is silent and your sanity makes a racket. — C.D. Reiss

My lips on your body trace the story of my love. — C.D. Reiss

Thinking about fucking. Finding someone to fuck. There was so much fucking. — C.D. Reiss