Beatrice Sparks Quotes & Sayings

I have invested my heart. There is a chance that it will be broken but also a chance at unlimited happiness. — Beatrice Sparks

You can't do anything to please anybody or say anything to please them or even dress so they'll be happy and give you a smile. — Beatrice Sparks

Upped but mentally disjointed. — Beatrice Sparks

Color intermingled with color. People intermingled with people. Color and people intercoursing together. — Beatrice Sparks

We are all in natural high, It was better than dope or booze or anything. — Beatrice Sparks

Like usual, what I want is not important, what I'm supposed to do that counts. — Beatrice Sparks

Judas, boredom is such a drag, drag, drag. Writing might be good therapy for me, though. — Beatrice Sparks

It's a terrible thing but it seems like tragedy brings people together, makes them more supportive, more dependent. — Beatrice Sparks

I bet the pill is harder to get than drugs
which shows how screwed up this world really is! — Beatrice Sparks

The same old dumb teachers teaching the same old dumb subjects in the same old dumb school. I seem to be kind of losing interest in everything. At first I thought high school would be fun but it's just dull. Everything's dull. Maybe it's because I'm growing up and life is becoming more blase. — Beatrice Sparks

I'm partly somebody else trying to fit in and say the right things and do the right thing and be in the right place and wear what everybody else is wearing. Sometimes I think we're all trying to be shadows of each other, trying to buy the same records and everything even if we don't like them. Kids are like robots, off an assembly line, and I don't want to be a robot! — Beatrice Sparks

I wanted to ask God to help me but I could utter only words, dark, useless words which fell on the floor beside me and rolled off into the corners and underneath the bed. — Beatrice Sparks

I'm really cracking. No, I'm beyond cracking. I'm shattered. I'm lost. I'm fragmented. — Beatrice Sparks

This morning when I left Mom's parting words were, "Come straight home after school." Wow! Like I'm going to get stoned at 3:30 - it doesn't sound so bad at that. — Beatrice Sparks

I pretend I've got lots of confidence and I'm a big jock and like that but deep inside I'm a frightened, insecure, can't-make-it failure. — Beatrice Sparks

I would like to stay stoned all the time, it scares me it's so good. I would like to stay stoned every minute of every day for the rest of my life. — Beatrice Sparks

They have accepted me as an individual, as a personality, as an entity. I belong! I am important! I am somebody! — Beatrice Sparks

Alone. The saddest word in the world. — Beatrice Sparks

Ife can sure be a downer. — Beatrice Sparks

How can thoughts hurt so much when they aren't even physical? — Beatrice Sparks

How is it possible for me to be so miserable and embarrassed and humiliated and beaten an function still talk and smile and concentrate? — Beatrice Sparks

I'm afraid to live and afraid to die. — Beatrice Sparks

I used to think I was the only one who felt things. but I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity. It's a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would really be a gory, blood-smeared earth. — Beatrice Sparks

I think I'd better take some of Gramps' sleeping pills, I'm never going to be able to sleep without them. In fact I think I'd better take a supply of them. He's got plenty, and I'm sure I'll have a few bad nights at home before I get straightened out. Oh, I hope it's just a few. — Beatrice Sparks

I love Coos Bay, and I love Acid! — Beatrice Sparks

I only know that I am now a priestess of Satan trying to maintain after a freak-out to test how free everybody was and to take our vows. — Beatrice Sparks

Sometimes fantasies are better than life. — Beatrice Sparks

I can't believe that I changed so little. I expected to look old and hollow and gray, but I guess it's only me on the inside that has shriveled and deteriorated. — Beatrice Sparks

Why is life so difficult? Why can't we be just ourselves and have everyone accept us the way we are? — Beatrice Sparks

If people are going to keep a journal, they should do it when they're little, where all the good things happen, before life starts kicking you in the ass and in the head and every other places. — Beatrice Sparks

Nobody's talking to me, but nobody's hassling me either. I guess you can't have everything. — Beatrice Sparks

Maybe the new me will be different. — Beatrice Sparks

Everyone is trying to get attention but intelligent persons get theirs by doing something worthwhile, beneficial to himself and the community. — Beatrice Sparks

I hope they never have to go through the kind of soul searching that I am going through. — Beatrice Sparks

I feel rotten but I can't change the way I feel. — Beatrice Sparks

I feel like Alice in Wonderland. Maybe Lewis G Carroll was on drugs too. — Beatrice Sparks

The complete bottom has fallen out of my life. — Beatrice Sparks

My biggest mistake: not wanting to help myself into thinking I am happy, that change would come about without really trying to change, or wanting to change. Procrastinating about changing. I do want to change. — Beatrice Sparks

The voice of every kid hooked on drugs, alcohol or the occult joins the sad chorus Not me! I didn't think it could ever happen to me. I was sure I could handle it. — Beatrice Sparks

What do you know about love? Are your feelings more holy than mine? Am I exempt from the knowledge of love until I become "of age?" Do I automatically become human enough when I start loving you and seeing things your way? — Beatrice Sparks

I'm not really sure which parts of myself are real and which parts are things I've gotten from books. — Beatrice Sparks

I know I was drugged but that is still no excuse. Why do they want to do things like that? — Beatrice Sparks

I looked at sky this morning and realized summer is almost gone which really made me sad because it doesn't seem as though its been here at all. — Beatrice Sparks

It's a good thing most people bleed on the inside or this would be a gory, blood-smeared earth. — Beatrice Sparks

I don't want to get old. I have this very silly fear, dear friend, that one day I'll be old, without ever having really been young. — Beatrice Sparks

I really am only one infinitely small part of an aching humanity. — Beatrice Sparks

I guess this like everything else bad in life, will pass. — Beatrice Sparks

I wanted to write in you. — Beatrice Sparks

I've been asleep and I don't know if it's the same day or week or year, but who the hell cares anyway? — Beatrice Sparks

I've got to sleep. Sleep is my only way to escape. — Beatrice Sparks

She didn't know whether she was running away from something or running to something, but she admitted that deep in her heart she wanted to go home. — Beatrice Sparks

We get pissed off when someone tells us what to do, but we don't know what to do unless some fat bastard tell us. — Beatrice Sparks

I wouldn't intentionally hurt anyone in this whole world. I wouldn't hurt them physically or emotionally, how then can people so consistently do it to me? Even my parents treat me like I'm stupid and inferior and ever short. I guess I'll never measure up to anyone's expectations. I surely don't measure up to what I'd like to be. — Beatrice Sparks

Adolescents have a very rocky insecure time. Grown-ups treat them like children and yet expect them to act like adults. They give them orders like little animals, then expect them to react like mature, and always rational, self-assured persons of legal stature. — Beatrice Sparks

I thought I was unhappy before ... I was just a stupid young kid that didn't know what happiness was. I was like a snot in a candy store who not only wanted all he could eat, but the whole thing. Life is stupid. Stupid. Or at least to this point, mine is. — Beatrice Sparks

Why so much hate in your mind when love is the only way to straighten things out? — Beatrice Sparks

When I'm with him, everything makes so much sense ... when I'm away, it's so much shit. — Beatrice Sparks

They don't think "I care," "I hurt," or "I have feelings." It just seems like I'm always "wrong," always "selfish," always "self-centered" and everything else that's negative and destructive. — Beatrice Sparks

Got my shit together Definition: I've learned how to play it cool. I've got some ideas worked out. — Beatrice Sparks

I'm afraid to hope but I can't help it, and the idea of hoping in this most hopeless of all places makes me want to cry. — Beatrice Sparks