Adam Silvera Quotes & Sayings

But hey, if there's one bright side to your dying, it's that you aren't around to tell me things I don't like hearing. I'm sorry. That was a dickhead thing to say. I need a condom for my mouth. — Adam Silvera

There's got to be some scientific study somewhere that proves your boyfriend's sweater will keep you warmer and cure you of any illnesses a lot faster, than some Pottery Barn blanket. — Adam Silvera

I want to be so happy that bad memories aren't following me around like unwanted shadows. — Adam Silvera

You move on, you have to - but you don't write someone out. — Adam Silvera

I have to push ahead with the people who don't take the easy way out, who love me enough to stay alive even whe life sucks — Adam Silvera

When someone makes you happy, it's pretty impossible to cage the excitement. — Adam Silvera

Before. Before is all I will have left, and Before destroyed me before. — Adam Silvera

It's impossible to explain the emotions cycling through me to someone who never forgot her life, later remembered it, and now has all these memories bleeding into each other. Every day feels more like chaos, like I'm never going to get my life straight - no pun intended - like starting over again is better than game over. — Adam Silvera

I wonder if Batman would save Robin over his girlfriend of the week. (The Dark Knight gets around, man.) — Adam Silvera

The world should stop lying to kids because they've always been brutally honest with us. — Adam Silvera

Imagine if we could glow to attract a mate instead of spraying on cologne that chokes everyone in a fifty-foot radius, — Adam Silvera

Remember when we had trouble beating the last few levels of Zelda? We pooled our allowances and bought the walk-through guide to help us out.' He softly adds, 'You should've asked for help before cheating. — Adam Silvera

Everything I did for him I did for me, too, because it made me happy to see him happy. That's not obsession, you dickhead, it's love." He's — Adam Silvera

I'm more happy than not.

Don't forget me. — Adam Silvera

She once promised me that nothing bad would ever happen, and then I grew up and everything went wrong, but I believe her this time because the worst thing that can happen is that nothing will happen at all. — Adam Silvera

I would do my damn best to be more happy than not. — Adam Silvera

Everyone plays a purpose, even fathers who lie to you or leave you behind. Time takes care of all that pain so if someone derails you, it'll be okay eventually. — Adam Silvera

Life felt like it was going to be too long. I wanted out. — Adam Silvera

Time doesn't heal all wounds. We both know that's bullshit; it comes from people who have nothing comforting or original to say. — Adam Silvera

Alternate universe idea: Theo and I are living together in a huge house overflowing with hats because I bought him a new one every day to get him to stay. — Adam Silvera

We all make mistakes... but it's also a step in the right direction. If nothing else it's a step away from the wrong one. — Adam Silvera

I'm so happy you were my first, Theo, and you were worth all the heartache. — Adam Silvera

Love, the hugest liar in this universe. — Adam Silvera

But I need him as badly as I should be pushing him away. It's too weird a mix of ugly and hopeful. — Adam Silvera

This is how Thomas lives his life, one misfired dream after the other. That journey may stretch for a lifetime, but even if he doesn't discover that spark until he's an old man, Thomas will die with wrinkles he earned and a smile on his face. — Adam Silvera

The boy with no direction taught me something unforgettable: happiness comes again if you let it. — Adam Silvera

You didn't have to take my side.'
I kind of, sort of, definitely always will. — Adam Silvera

From the shapes cast by the green paper lantern, you would never know that there were two boys sitting closely to one another trying to find themselves. You would only see shadows hugging, indiscriminate. — Adam Silvera

I'm blown away by how happy you make me. Thank you for being there for me when I'm stupid enough to think I'd rather be alone. — Adam Silvera

History is nothing. It can be recycled or thrown away completely. It isn't this sacred treasure chest I mistook it to be. We were something, but history isn't enough to keep something alive forever. — Adam Silvera

I look up, and Jackson's eyes find mine. For a second, it almost feels like we're about to race into the hole to join you. Being buried alive has got to be better than whatever comes next. — Adam Silvera

I've become this happiness scavenger who picks away at the ugliness of the world, because if there's happiness tucked away in my tragedies, I'll find it no matter what. If the blind can find joy in music, and the deaf can discover it with colors, I will do my best to always find the sun in the darkness because my life isn't one sad ending - it's a series of endless happy beginnings. — Adam Silvera

But when I come back down, I remember something very crucial: Fuck, I have no idea how to have sex. — Adam Silvera

HISTORY Sunday, November 13th, 2016 My — Adam Silvera

One night we argued for a solid hour over who would win in a duel between Lord Voldemort and Darth Vader. I'm surprised we're still friends. — Adam Silvera

In that moment, I wish my existence were as simple as being set on fire and exploding in the sky. — Adam Silvera

Telling Mom was one thing. Telling Dad is another.
He's in the living room smoking and watching what he claims is a very important Yankees game. It's in the ninth inning and the teams are tied. I consider backing out, maybe waiting another week or so, but maybe he won't actually care when I tell him. Maybe all that stuff he said when I was younger, about never acting like a girl or playing with any female action figures, will go away once he realizes I am the way I am without any choice. Maybe he'll accept me.
Mom follows me into the living room and sits down on Eric's bed. "Mark, do you have a minute? Aaron has something he wants to talk about."
He exhales cigarette smoke. "I'm listening." He never looks away from the game. — Adam Silvera

You don't get to keep ignoring the past because you don't like it. — Adam Silvera

People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we're left unfinished. Sometimes that's for the best. Some pieces can't be forced into a puzzle, or at least they shouldn't be, because they won't make sense. — Adam Silvera

This is the moment of the end. This is where we give up hope on reversing time, where we abandon finding a cure to death, where we live in this Theo-less universe, where we say goodbye. But I can't. It is goodbye for most, but not for me. Never me. — Adam Silvera

We can't ever be together," he finished. "But I always want to know you, even if we're in the same room and you're just saying hi to me over and over again, I'll be perfectly happy. I'll always want to be sitting across from you. — Adam Silvera

If you looked inside me, I bet you'd find two different hearts beating for two different people, like the sun and the moon up at the same time, a terrible eclipse I'm the only witness to. — Adam Silvera

Then there's the kind of zombie I've become now: the one who has lost everything - his brain, his heart, his light, his direction. He wanders the world, bumping into this, tripping over that, but keeps going and going. That is life after death. — Adam Silvera

She pulls away - and then I see why: she's holding out her palm as a landing place for a firefly. It's easy to forget it's there when it's not glowing, until all of a sudden it comes back and surprises you; it reminds you of grief. — Adam Silvera

I feel like a rock being skipped through the ocean - pain, relief, pain again, relief again, eventually destined to sink. — Adam Silvera

There's nothing wrong with someone saving my life, I've realized, especially when I can't trust myself to get the job done right. People need people. That's that. — Adam Silvera

Sometimes pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. Other times pain acts as a compass to help you get through the messier tunnels of growing up. But the pain can only help you find happiness if you can remember it. — Adam Silvera

I'll never understand how time can make a moment feel as close as yesterday and as far as years. — Adam Silvera

But there is the happiness he promised, too. He loves me without being in love with me and that's all I can ask of him. I don't even need to hear him say it to believe it. — Adam Silvera

happiness comes again if you let it. — Adam Silvera

While we can't always engineer our own happy endings, we can learn how to be more happy than not with the cards we've been dealt. — Adam Silvera

It's okay how some stories leave off without an ending. Life doesn't always deliver the one you would expect. — Adam Silvera

Kneel before the king, Griff." I look around for the king. "Me, asshole. I'm the king. Who else would be the king? Wade?"
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"On this rainy Thursday, I, King Theo of New York City, praise you, Sir Griffin of New York City, for your vast knowledge of fantasy novels I"ll never take the time to read myself. And for having the kind of laugh that I like hearing so much I would punch myself over and over if you found it funny. — Adam Silvera

Even if I only got to spend that first drive to the planetarium with Theo, he broke me in a way everyone should be lucky to be cracked open at least once. I had the privilege of being destroyed by him until we found a better, real me inside of the person I was pretending to be. — Adam Silvera

Every universe I've created lately, your face keeps popping up in it. — Adam Silvera

I was in love and love died and the pain you've left isn't pain I can see myself having the strength to face again. — Adam Silvera

Happiness shouldn't be this hard. — Adam Silvera

Memories: some can be sucker punching, others carry you forward; some stay with you forever, others you forget on your own. You can't really know which ones you'll survive if you don't stay on the battlefield, bad times shooting at you like bullets. But if you're lucky, you'll have plenty of good times to shield you. — Adam Silvera

I realize I'm crying a little, too. I remember. Sometimes pain is so unmanageable that the idea of spending another day with it seems impossible. Other times pain acts as a compass to help you through the messier tunnels of growing up. But pain can only help you find happiness if you remember it. — Adam Silvera

I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me. — Adam Silvera

I'd give in to the grief but make sure I wasn't loud enough to draw attention from those who think words will make me feel better. — Adam Silvera