Tammara Quotes & Sayings

There's something uncontaminated about her, and I don't even mean sexually or whatever. I mean the way she is, at her core. Like when you wake up and the world has been blanketed by snow overnight, and not a single footstep or tire track has spoiled the untouched perfection of it. — Tammara Webber

But why?" "You heard the pay, right? And also, to be near you." Thumbing a tear from my cheek, he added, "Mostly, to be near you. — Tammara Webber

Maybe I'm exactly where I should be after all. — Tammara Webber

Why don't you go get in bed?"
I stood, laying my hand on his chest and staring up at him. "Is that a dare?"
He laid one hand over mine and pull me closer with the other. Leaning down, he kissed me gently. "It absolutely is. No falling out of it allowed, though. — Tammara Webber

I suppose love is never a sure thing, no matter what words are spoken. Love requires a leap of faith into the abyss, every time. — Tammara Webber

Here's to everyone who has survived something devastating
something that shattered your self-confidence and distorted your world in one blow. Whether you were fierce in the face of it or fell to pieces or shoved it out of sight for years
I don't care how you got here. Every day you are stronger. Every day you are healing. Every day that you survive, you are telling that event, that person, that illness, that memory: YOU DO NOT DEFINE ME. Keep on.
Acknowledgements — Tammara Webber

Why me?" I hear his answer in my head before he says it.
"Don't know, honey. But there's a reason for everything." Dad pats my hand. "We'll just have to wait patiently to see what it is."
As i do every time he says that or something like this, I bite back what I'd say if I could reply honestly. I don't believe there's a reason for everything, and having faith doesn't mean I'm blind. I believe people make poor choices. I believed bad things happen to good people. I believe there's evil in the world that I will never understand, but will never stop fighting. If I believe for two seconds that there was a reason behind some of the awful things that occur in this life, I wouldn't be able to stand it. — Tammara Webber

I'm a coward. A willing coward, complicit in my own fall. I've never told him that I love him, as if refusing to say it aloud would somehow shield us both, but it hasn't. Like an untamed, sentient thing, full of I am and yet estranged from me, my heart discerns its own truth and knows that this omission is a lie. — Tammara Webber

Not. Your. Fault.
I nodded again, holding onto his words like they were redemption. — Tammara Webber

I've heard people say My heart stopped - which of course isn't possible unless you've just died - but I now understood where the perception might originate. — Tammara Webber

I kept my eyes open on the ride home. Peeking over Lucas's shoulder, i watched the scenery fly by-and it was exhilarating, not frightening. I trusted him. I had since that first night, when i let him drive me home. — Tammara Webber

You're full of contradictions, Ms. Wallace."
I looked up at him and arched a brow. "I'm a girl. That's part of the job description, Mr. Maxfield. — Tammara Webber

Brooke?"
I puff out a sigh. "For chrissake, Reid, who do you think it is? And haven't you put me into your contacts yet?"
"Yeah ... It just says Satan, though, and I forgot I'd assigned that title to you. — Tammara Webber

Let me tell you girls a story, short and sweet. In high school, I was a junior varsity cheerleader dating a senior who was up for football scholarships. I'd slept with him several times willingly. One night I wasn't in the mood, but he was. So he held me down and forced me. The few people I told about it - including my best friend - pointed out what would happen to him if I told. They stressed the fact that I hadn't been a virgin, that we were dating, that we'd had sex before. So I kept quiet. I never even told my mother. That boy put bruises on my body. I was crying and begging him to stop and he didn't. That's called rape, ladies. — Tammara Webber

I stare into his eyes, a slight smile pulling at my mouth, and I see myself as he sees me. I feel loved, and scared, and hopeful. I feel found. And I think, Here is the beginning of my faith. Here is my forever. Right here. Right here. — Tammara Webber

I'm a hopeful romantic who adores novels with happy endings, because there are enough sad endings in real life. — Tammara Webber

I opened my mouth wide one time to see if the words I was thinking would fall out, but they wouldn't. If words don't want to come out, they don't. I don't understand when people say things and then they say, I didn't mean to say that. Words don't just fall out. You have to push them out. And sometimes, you can't push them out, even if you want to. — Tammara Webber

She scares the hell out of me and calms my soul at the same time. Maybe that's what love is - a total contradiction that somehow balances out. — Tammara Webber

Almost every time i saw you, you were with him. But one day, you walked up to the building alone. I was holding the door for several girls in front of you, and i waited for you to catch up. When you reached me, you look pleased, and a little surprised. Unlike the others, you didn't expect the door to be held for you by some random guy. You smiled up at me and said, 'Thank you.' That was the last straw. I prayed you 'd never come to a session, and not with him. I didn't want you to know i was the tutor. — Tammara Webber

I take it this is one of the ones crushing on you."
"What? They all crush on me. I'm a hot college girl, remember?" I laughed and his eyes burned into mine.
He leaned in close and whispered into my ear. "So hot. Now you've got me thinking what you looked like this morning, when i woke up with you in my arms, in my bed. Would it be too greedy to ask you to stay tonight, too?"
"I was afraid you weren't going to ask. — Tammara Webber

But I'll say this, if what looks like the facts of the matter are conflicting with your feelings, then you need more information before deciding — Tammara Webber

Minus my relationship with Kennedy, I had no automatic invitation to Greek Parties or events, though Chaz and Erin could invite me to some stuff since I fell under the heading of acceptable things to bring to any party: alcohol and girls.
Awesome. I'd gone from independent girlfriend to party paraphernalia. — Tammara Webber

It was as though he didn't exist, and then suddenly, he was everywhere. — Tammara Webber

I fight the urge to enjoy anything too much in front of him, actually, and now that I'm aware of that fact, my brain gets hung up on why that is. — Tammara Webber

There are a million ways to lose someone you love. — Tammara Webber

What the hell is it about brooding guys that's attractive to women, anyway? I've become one since Dori's call three weeks ago, and it's made me more of a chick magnet. I shouldn't be surprised - being a dick never hurt my appeal before. — Tammara Webber

Every moment was a before and an after. Every moment was a now to be lived. — Tammara Webber

It's my baby. I can't just let her give it away - — Tammara Webber

I'm eighteen, so he's right
there's no hurry. I don't tell him how much I want that sort of connection
a relationship like he and Mom share. The trust and respect between them is plain to see, but I know that under the surface, their relationship simmers with passion. I don't tell him how much I worry it will never happen for me. I don't tell him how some days, I feel as though everything I do is an attempt to be worthy of being loved like that. — Tammara Webber

How did you know???
I'm Erin. I know all. ;) — Tammara Webber

And then she told me she didn't want someone who needed her in order to be a better guy. She wanted someone who was better by himself, with or without her. — Tammara Webber

It looked like a love poem, and I was jealous of whoever inspired the sort of devotion he must have felt to make those words so permanent — Tammara Webber

Stay here tonight, Jacqueline. I need to keep you here, at least tonight. Please. — Tammara Webber

There's not a boy on the planet worth this amount of angst. I know; I used to be one — Tammara Webber

He stared down at me, and i examined his beautiful eyes up close, something i'd never tire of doing. — Tammara Webber

Let's go make Chaz wish he was never born."
"Oh, Erin. I'm so glad you 're on my side."
"Damn right, bitch. — Tammara Webber

I didn't change Reid Alexander. I just helped him uncover who he always was, at his core. — Tammara Webber

Sorry, boyfriends everywhere - you're doomed to sit through an hour and forty-seven minutes of syrupy drivel. The payoff? Between my face, Tadd's abs and Quinton's biceps, your girl will be ready for takeoff as soon as the credits roll. You're welcome. — Tammara Webber

The key to lying skillfully is never lie to yourself. — Tammara Webber

And I'm okay, I really am, most of the time. But sometimes, I'm just not. — Tammara Webber

You said you have faith in us. You told me to come to you when I was ready to be fearless. The truth is, I don't know if I can be fearless. I've lost myself, Reid, and I'm still so scared.
But I'm ready to try. If you still want to, I'm ready. — Tammara Webber

I shrugged. "I guess that guys who'd never do something like that have a hard time believing some other guy would," I said, but I could see her point. Awareness and apologies were fine and good, but they could come too late. — Tammara Webber

It's not that i don't want you. I lied, earlier, when i said i was protecting you. I'm protecting myself. I don't want to be your rebound, Jacqueline."
"Then why are you assuming that role? It's not what i want, either."
"What am i gonna do with you?"
"I can think of a couple things. — Tammara Webber

I wanted to tell you that I just
I miss you. And maybe that sounds ridiculous
like we barely know each other, but between the emails and texts and ... everything else, I felt like we did. Like we do. and I miss
I don't know how else to say it
I miss both of you. — Tammara Webber

So Buck can enjoy sitting in a cell contemplating how he blew up his life. That
dickwad hurt two people sitting at this table. And you're worried about who'll look bad if they tell? Screw that. Dean and D.J. and Kennedy and
every frat boy on this campus can all go fuck themselves. Are we sisters or not? — Tammara Webber

And I want nothing more than to wrap myself around him and be carried away to a place where I don't have to think. A place where there's no guilt or fear, no right or wrong, no divine punishments or senseless accidents or indeterminate states. — Tammara Webber

Every man has an inner caveman. Unless he's a flaming queen, in which case he has an inner wild-eyed, jealous bitch - as in the case of an ex of mine. But I digress. — Tammara Webber

Chivalry isn't really dead you know." "Oh?" "Nah. That guy's just an asshole. — Tammara Webber

The world an author creates and the characters that inhabit it may come from her imagination alone, but few authors can wrestle the story that emerges into shape without help. — Tammara Webber

What I can't do anywhere is be with you. — Tammara Webber

I haven't tried this with anyone ... signifacant in a long time. It's never worked before."
"You haven't had sex before?"
"I have. But not with anyone i cared about or ... knew. One-time things. That's all."
"That's all-ever?"
"It's not like they 've been tons of them. There were more before, in high school, than there have been the last three years."
"Lucas? I said yes, and i meant it. I want this-as long as you have protection, i mean. I want this, with you. So this is okay. Please don't ask me to say stop."
"I want it to be better than okay. You deserve better than okay."
"You 're shaking, Jacqueline. Do you want to-"
"No." "I'm just a little cold."
"Better?"
"Yes."
"You know you can say it. But i'm not asking you to, this time."
"Good."
His earlier hesitation gone, he removed the last scraps of fabric we were wearing, fixed the condom in place, kissed me fiercely and rocked into me. — Tammara Webber

Sisters in solidarity and all that shit. — Tammara Webber

How could I not love you? No one has ever affected me like you do. When you told me goodbye last month, I tried to let you go. I told myself it was the best thing for you because you wanted it. But you're wrong, Dori. I'm good for you even if you don't know it yet. I know because I've never been good for anyone before. — Tammara Webber

Wow, shit. Gotten us a place? I am gone. Over Dorcas Cantrell, a girl who convinced me in a one-minute phone
call that I meant nothing to her. — Tammara Webber

I'm trying to protect you. From myself. I don't do ... " he swung a finger back and forth between us" ... this. — Tammara Webber

No matter what happened to any individual person, life was going on elsewhere. The first time Kennedy kissed me, it stood to reason that at the same time, other people were splitting up. And the night Kennedy broke my heart, somewhere
maybe right there in my dorm, other people were falling in love. — Tammara Webber

I felt the threads of connection between us - fragile filaments, so easily snapped. Like the poem at shift into his side, we were craving to fit inside the other, and is melting and reshaping could be deeper, more resilient. — Tammara Webber

I shook to my core, my soul curving around her protectively as my mind strove to determine the logical calculation that could make her mine. I wanted to be hers as much - more - than I wanted to possess her, when I knew damned well that neither was possible. — Tammara Webber

Time would not change what I was feeling
or not feeling. I'd had time, and though the ache from his desertion hadn't disappeared, it was decreasing. My future was blurry, yes, but I was beginning to imagine a future when I would no longer miss him at all. — Tammara Webber

They call it 'falling in love' because it's less like stepping and more like tripping. Tripping is the part where you're still trying to remain upright — Tammara Webber

I was more scared than I let on, but that was nothing new. — Tammara Webber

I'm going to arrange you, if that's okay?"
I swallowed. "Uh ... sure." My hands were clutched to my ribcage, my shoulders hunched almost to my ears. What, this isn't how you want me positioned? — Tammara Webber

That macho protective bullshit is just some asshat man pissing on his territory so the other dogs will stay away. — Tammara Webber

Please touch me. I need you to touch me. — Tammara Webber

no cray,Daddy he whisper — Tammara Webber

I just told her I love her. There's no going back. Nothing to do but own it. But there's the crux of the matter - I want to own it. — Tammara Webber

Lucas was fifteen minutes late to class on Friday, and we had a pop quiz first thing - which he missed. My first thought was how irresponsible it was to miss a quiz ... and then I remembered that I missed the midterm. I couldn't exactly point any fingers. — Tammara Webber

New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings ~ Lao Tzu. — Tammara Webber

Everyone isn't logical. Everything doesn't make sense in the end. Sometimes you have to forget about explanations or excuses and leave people and places behind, because otherwise they will drag you straight down. — Tammara Webber

I try to be rational and suppress the hope that this is for real, but hope has a way of closing its eyes to reason and it just keeps growing. — Tammara Webber

When you tell me to be good, it makes me want to be good,' I say, hearing the undisguised desire in my voice. I run my fingers through the hair at her temples, taking her face between my palms, and she doesn't move. 'It also makes me want to be very, very bad. — Tammara Webber

I thought about texting Lucas, but what would i say? That i'd tossed and turned all night, thinking of his hands on me? — Tammara Webber

Really, he could have just punched me in the stomach, because my brain refused to comprehend the words he was saying. A physical assault, it might have understood. — Tammara Webber

I wanted to put on earphones and plug into her and know what she was hearing when her fingers performed. — Tammara Webber

That's how they say it: He loves you in his own way. Well, what about my way? What if I need for him to love me in my way? — Tammara Webber

Ugh! Erin. You have a one-track mind."
She smiled deviously. "I prefer to think of it as target-driven. — Tammara Webber

LUCAS: I've done a couple from memory but they aren't the same. Can't quite get the shape of your jaw. The line of your neck. And your lips. I need to spend more time staring at them and less time tasting them.
ME: I can't say i agree with that notion.
LUCAS: More of both, then. — Tammara Webber

Erin and I spent four hours shopping for dresses and shoes Tuesday night. She was going all out in her intention to make Chaz regret any decision he'd made that didn't include worshipping at her feet. — Tammara Webber

But even if you have what everyone else wants- if it isn't what you want, it isn't what you want — Tammara Webber

She's the ultimate heroine, strong-willed and independent, intelligent, loyal, but at the same time, she's not flawless, she's not above mistakes, or falling in love. — Tammara Webber

You're so beautiful. — Tammara Webber

I'd always defined jealousy as coveting what someone else has. — Tammara Webber

Is there any chance the tutor is, you know, gay?" I held my breath, waiting for his answer.

"What, like I hand out a survey?" He laughed when I blinked, worried I'd just offended him. "I'm just messing with ya. I'm pretty sure he doesn't play for my team. Though if he did, he'd be a little out of my league." He sucked in and patted his stomach, which was made somewhat flat by his efforts. "Nothing a couple of weeks at the gym and giving up bread for the weekend wouldn't take care of."

I rolled my eyes. "Shut up."

He sighed. "I love being a guy. Need to lose five pounds? Go without ketchup for a couple of weeks. Problem. Solved."

We shouldered our backpacks and trudged up the stairs. "I really hate you right now. — Tammara Webber

The truth was, he now belonged only to my past, and it was time I begin to accept it, as much as it hurt to do so. — Tammara Webber

When I registered for econ, I had no idea that I'd be in for this level of reality-show drama. It's like a big fat bonus. — Tammara Webber

Plenty of girls saw college as some sort of exploratory period. — Tammara Webber

As soon as we hit campus freshman year, Kennedy had pledged his father's fraternity. Despite my boyfriend's need for cliquish affiliation, I'd never shared that aspiration. He didn't seem to mind when I said I preferred not to rush any sororities, as long as I supported his future-politician need for brotherhood. He told me once he sort of liked that I was a GDI girlfriend.

"A GDI? What's that?"

He'd laughed and said, "It means you're goddamned independent. — Tammara Webber

No matter what grief or loss takes place, most of life flows on all around us, as though nothing's changed. At some point in our sorrow, we each make a choice to sink or swim. There's no alternative. — Tammara Webber

Few of us can actually change the world. We can only change ourselves. But if enough people took that to heart, the world would change. — Tammara Webber

The last time someone dried my hair for me was in sixth grade, when i broke my arm." "How did you break it?" "I fell out of a tree." "You fell out of a tree?" "I think there was a boy and a dare involved." "Ah. — Tammara Webber

I was so afraid of wanting too much that I couldn't trust her handing me a shot at getting it. I don't want to be that senselessly fearful ever again. — Tammara Webber

Somebody always wants more. — Tammara Webber

What do you say when the feelings don't fit into words? — Tammara Webber

Erin was right. Apologies could come too late. — Tammara Webber

I wondered when I would stop feeling like such a clueless twit for that misplaced trust. — Tammara Webber

Woman, if i was straight, i would steal you from him so hard. — Tammara Webber

Graham runs a hand through his hair and takes a deep breath. Finally, with a determined scowl, he crosses the room. His hands grip my shoulders. "We are not," his voice is a gentle tremor, "breaking up — Tammara Webber

Tonight I want to stand on the side of a cliff and look down, dare the wind to gust and knock me off. Everyone thinks that falling to your death is the worst thing that can happen. But that's a lie. The worst thing is to be alive for no reason. — Tammara Webber

Erin: We get to beat the shit outta guys in those big puffy suits!!! I've always wanted to really kick the crap outta some guy's nuts. Now I can do it guilt-free!
Me: You're a sick girl.
Erin: Guilty as charged. — Tammara Webber

We talked
recent history only
and Lucas relayed the story of how Francis came to be his roommate. He showed up at the door one night, demanding to be let in. Napped on the sofa for an hour, then demanded to be let out. It turned into a nightly ritual, with him staying longer and longer, until at some point I realized he'd moved in. He's basically the most brazen squatter ever. — Tammara Webber