Hodkin Quotes & Sayings

What if they make me stay? To keep me safe?""I wouldn't, if I were them."
"What do you mean?""Any minute now ... "Two seconds later, the sound of an alarm filled my ears.
"What did you do?" I said over the noise as he backed up toward the bathroom door.
"The girl who gave you the note?"
"Yes ... "
"I caught her staring at my lighter."
I blinked. "You gave a child, in a psych ward, a lighter. — Michelle Hodkin

Don't you mean 'assclown'?" he looked amused.
"No," I said louder this time. "I mean asscrown. The crown on top of the asshat that covers the asshole of the assclown. The very zenith in the hierarchy of asses. — Michelle Hodkin

Names?' the receptionist asked us.
"Jesus," Jamie answered.
"Mary," said Stella.
"Satan," I said as I walked past her and pushed open the door to Ira Ginsberg's office. — Michelle Hodkin

It is our choices that define us, not our abilities. — Michelle Hodkin

People are so over-connected that they are completely disconnected — Michelle Hodkin

You're stronger than you believe. Don't let your fear own you. Own yourself. — Michelle Hodkin

I'll be there at ten."
"Oh," I said suprised. "For some reason I thought that this was a day thing."
"Halarious. Ten in the morning, darling."
"Can't a girl sleep in on the weekend!"
"You don't sleep. See you Sunday, and don't wear stupid shoes." Noah said, and hung up before I could reply. I stood, staring at the phone. He was so aggravating. But a nervous thrill traveled through my stomach. Me and Noah. Sunday. Just us. — Michelle Hodkin

Sometimes I did things I didn't want to do,or said things I didn't want to say. Sometimes I felt like crying for no reason, or snapped at people I cared about for less. I'd been so worried for so long that I was losing my mind, but now it felt like I was losing my body. I felt like a stranger. — Michelle Hodkin

I hate you," I muttered.
Noah smiled wider. "I know. — Michelle Hodkin

Today, tonight, tommorrow, forever. I was made for you — Michelle Hodkin

All I want is you. You don't have to choose me now or ever, but when you choose, I want you free. — Michelle Hodkin

Fix me, this thing, what I've done- there's something wrong with me, Noah, fix it."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"Because you're not broken. — Michelle Hodkin

...and I freaked the fuck out in earnest. — Michelle Hodkin

Are you mad at me too?" My voice sounded dead.
"Mad at you?" He seemed surprised by the question. "No," he finally said. "I'm not mad at you."
But he was still standing there, looking at me in a way I couldn't describe but didn't like. "Then what?"
"I'm scared of you," he said, and left the room. — Michelle Hodkin

Get them out. Please stop. — Michelle Hodkin

Why is it that whenever anyone says something offensive, they always add 'no offense' after it? — Michelle Hodkin

They rattled my cage to see if I'd bite. When they released me, they'd see that the answer was yes. — Michelle Hodkin

It doesn't matter what we are. It matters what we do. — Michelle Hodkin

That mouth. Smoking was a bad habit, yes. But he looked so good doing it. — Michelle Hodkin

I would rather die with the taste of you on my tongue than live and never touch you again. — Michelle Hodkin

There were days when I felt that a dragon slept inside me, and exhaled poison with every breath. I flirted with suicide more times than I can count. But I know now why I never did it. I was saving that day for you. — Michelle Hodkin

You scare the filling out of her doughnut. — Michelle Hodkin

Why would you think that?" "Perhaps because she is batshit crazy, Brooke." Jamie slow-clapped. "Jamie," Brooke said calmly. "I'm not sure that's productive." "I was applauding Mara for her extraordinary appropriate use of the term 'batshit crazy'. — Michelle Hodkin

My heart beats her name — Michelle Hodkin

If I were to live a thousand years, I would belong to you for all of them. If we were to live a thousand lives, I would want to make you mine in each one. — Michelle Hodkin

For as long as I can remember, I've had trouble with feelings. Other people get scared, nervous, or shy, excited, or happy, sad. I seem to have only two settings: blank or empty. — Michelle Hodkin

So, what are you doing with my little sister today?" Daniel asked. I closed my eyes in defeat.
"I'm afraid I can't ruin the surprise," Noah said. "But I promise I'll return her intact."
He did not just say that. Daniel cackled — Michelle Hodkin

You made me real, and I will hurt for you and because of you and be grateful for the pain. But this? This is forever. Don't do this. — Michelle Hodkin

That's what separated us from the multitudes of Them. We lived harder. Knew better. But we laughed anyway. Laughed because there was nothing else to do but give up. — Michelle Hodkin

I grabbed the sides of the machine and tried to shake it. No dice. Then I kicked it. Still nothing.
I glared at the machine. "Let them out." I punctuated my statement with a few more useless kicks.
"You have an anger-management problem."
I whipped around at the sound of the warm, lilting British accent behind me. — Michelle Hodkin

This was the boy I loved. A little bit messy. A little bit ruined. A beautiful disaster. Just like me. — Michelle Hodkin

He would kiss me, right now, after everything I'd done. I was poison, and Noah was the drug that would make me forget it. — Michelle Hodkin

I want YOU to be the one wanting me first. Pushing me first. Kissing me first. Don't be careful with me," he said. "Because I won't be careful with you. — Michelle Hodkin

This. You. Are enough. — Michelle Hodkin

What are you smirking about, over there?"
"I'm more well-rounded than you."
"Not possible. You're American," he said. "And if it is true, it's only because you like crap. — Michelle Hodkin

I looked up at the video camera and stared. Then raised my hand and gave it the middle finger.
"I thought you were going to give it the District Twelve salute," Jamie said. — Michelle Hodkin

Did I just see you litter?'
'I'm driving a hybrid. It cancels out. — Michelle Hodkin

So, what are we going to do with you? Jamie asked.
"In what sense?"
"IN the sense that you go from zero to homicidal in sixty seconds."
"I'm passionate."
You're maniac," Jamie said — Michelle Hodkin

I was just going to say it reminds me of the symbols on a family crest."
Noah stopped mid-stride, and turned very slowly. "We're not related."
"I know, but - "
"Don't even think it. — Michelle Hodkin

Also, I kissed her. She liked it.

Naturally. — Michelle Hodkin

Is there any point in asking what you're going to do to me?"
He grinned wickedly. "Not really."
Fabulous.
"Does it involve the use of a safe word?"
"That will depend entirely on you. — Michelle Hodkin

Before I could say anything, Jamie began writing giant letters over the words with his index finger.
F-U-C-K Y-O-U.
My sentiments exactly. — Michelle Hodkin

I know what I can do to a girl with a word, a look, a touch. And I want to do them all to her. — Michelle Hodkin

I'm the creepy girl. In a mental hospital."
He grinned. "Nobody's perfect. — Michelle Hodkin

I didnt notice the small, black streak of fur hurtling in my direction untill it she was only a few feet away. Noah whisked the dog into the air just as it charged for me. "You little bitch," Noah said to the snarling dog. "Behave. — Michelle Hodkin

I knew one hundred little things about Noah Shaw but when he kissed me I couldn't remember my own name. — Michelle Hodkin

Go away. I'm smelly. And you bother me enormously. — Michelle Hodkin

I've already learned Parseltongue. What else is there?"
"Elvish. — Michelle Hodkin

You think it can't get worse than wanting someone and not having them, but it can. You can want someone, have them, and want them more. Still. Always. You can never get enough. — Michelle Hodkin

And just like that, I was completely, utterly, and entirely,
His. — Michelle Hodkin

My father might be right. If I lost Noah, I might just lose my mind. — Michelle Hodkin

The thing about happiness, though, is that it never lasts. — Michelle Hodkin

I stifled a yawn. It's too early to be such an asshat Daniel. — Michelle Hodkin

I believe that every person has a responsibility to leave the world a better place than he found it. — Michelle Hodkin

Lolita," he said, turning my book over in his hands. His eyes widened over the pink-lipped mouth on the cover, then handed it to me. Our fingers brushed, and a warm current coursed through them. My heart thundered so loud he could probably hear it.
"So," he said, his eyes meeting mine. "You're a smuthound with daddy issues?" The corner of his mouth turned up in a slow, condescending smile.
I wanted to smack it off his face. "Well, you're quoting it. And incorrectly, by the way. So what does that make you?"
His half-smile morphed into a whole grin. "Oh, I'm definitely a smuthound with daddy issues. — Michelle Hodkin

Time was supposed to heal all wounds, but how could it when Jude kept picking the scab? — Michelle Hodkin

We are far too screwed up for a goddamned love triangle. — Michelle Hodkin

No, I got it," he said. His voice was weird.
"Really?" I felt a nervous thrill in my stomach. "What was it?"
Jamie hesitated before he spoke. Then he said, "Marashaw. — Michelle Hodkin

The people we care about are always worth more to us than the people we don't. No matter what anyone pretends. — Michelle Hodkin

She said you were an awesome lay, I said, feigning interest in the gush of water that spilled out from the gutter by the lockers. My face would betray me if he saw it.
Well, that's true, Noah said. — Michelle Hodkin

I don't know how to make you understand what you do to me. Just thinking about kissing you is enough. Feeling your tongue against mine. The way you taste. The sounds you make. Everything. I've wanted you so much, for so long, but in the way you want things you'll never, ever have. Like no matter what I do, you'll always be just out of reach. But when you kiss me? It's like I'm on fire. — Michelle Hodkin

Put a petty criminal in maximum security prison and he'll come out knowing how to rape and pillage. — Michelle Hodkin

Noah started this chase and I stood before him, waiting to be caught. He could have me, but he refused to move.
Only now did I realize why.
He wanted to be caught. He was waiting for me to chase him. — Michelle Hodkin

Then the only way out is through, Jamie said, and Stella started the truck. — Michelle Hodkin

I rushed ahead until another girls' bathroom appeared. I pushed the door open, planning to leave Noah outside while I collected myself.
But he followed me in.
Two younger girls were standing at te mirror applying lip gloss.
"Get out," Noah said to them, his voice laced with boredom. As if they were the ones who didn't belong in the girls' bathroom. — Michelle Hodkin

My name is not Mara Dyer. — Michelle Hodkin

One little joke involving hemorrhagic fever and they brand you 'unstable — Michelle Hodkin

How are we supposed to get in?"
Stella kicked the metal shutter.
"Fool of a Took!" Jamie hissed through his teeth. "If someone's in there, they probably heard that. — Michelle Hodkin

She cannot become other than what she is. — Michelle Hodkin

Have you made any other friends since we've been here?"
I gave him the death stare. "Yes, actually."
"Who? I want a name."
"Jamie Roth."
"The Ebola kid? I heard he's a little unstable."
"That was one incident. — Michelle Hodkin

Do not find peace. Find passion. — Michelle Hodkin

I didn't know enough to hold myself back. Now I was too aware, hyperaware, and so the fear chained me. — Michelle Hodkin

I planted a kamikaze kiss on Jamie's cheek.
"FUCK," he shouted, wiping it off. "What if you killed me!" He threw a Skittle at my face. It hit my forehead.
"Ow!"
"Taste the rainbow bitch. — Michelle Hodkin

Having everyone stare and wonder what sort of hijinks your vagina's been up to isn't as thrilling as one might imagine. — Michelle Hodkin

If you fight yourself, you will lose, and fighting leaves scares. — Michelle Hodkin

Um, I think your brother might be waving at you. That, or trying to guide a plane to safety. — Michelle Hodkin

I will not find peace with her. But there will be no greater passion. — Michelle Hodkin

I'd hit that so hard whoever pulled me out would become the King of England. — Michelle Hodkin

If you ask the wrong questions, you will get the wrong answers. — Michelle Hodkin

Everyone is a little crazy. The only difference between us and them is that they hide it better. — Michelle Hodkin

I so badly needed to self-destruct. — Michelle Hodkin

I'm chasing oblivion I will never find. — Michelle Hodkin

to the bad girls and the boys who love them. — Michelle Hodkin

Ow."
"You had a mosquito."
"No, I didn't. — Michelle Hodkin

Taste the Rainbow, bitch! — Michelle Hodkin

The cab pulled over to the curb, and Jamie said in that voice of his, "You never saw us." "I never saw you," the driver repeated, sounding dazed. "You drove this astonishingly hot underwear model from south Texas. You wanted to lick his abs." "I wanted to lick his abs." "You're such an asshole," Stella muttered as she climbed out of the cab. "I get my kicks where I can. — Michelle Hodkin

No, it isn't irrelevant. You want me as much as I want you. And all I want is you. — Michelle Hodkin

Mara is the one I never knew I was waiting for, and as long as she'll have me, I will never let her go. — Michelle Hodkin

Gather my leaves,
Twist them into crowns
Let me be the king of your forest
Climb on my branches,
I will seek out your hide
s you sleep beneath the shade
Of my giving tree — Michelle Hodkin

You are what happiness means to me. And I would rather have today with you than forever with anyone else. — Michelle Hodkin

This is a love story. Twisted and messy. Flawed and screwed up. But it's ours. It's us. I don't know how our story will end. but I know it will start. I pick up my pen and begin to write:
My name is not Mara Dyer, but my lawyer told me I had to choose something. — Michelle Hodkin

I stumbled out from under the archway on to the sprawling green. The sun blinded me and I wanted to punch it in the face. And thinking that made me giggle. Then my giggle turned into a cackle. Soon, I was laughing so hard tears streamed down my face. My neck felt wet and I was out of breath and I dropped to the ground beneath a tree at the far corner of the campus, laughing madly and twisting in the grass, gripping my sides because they hurt, damn it, but it was just so funny. — Michelle Hodkin

I was poison, and Noah was the drug that would made me forget it. — Michelle Hodkin

Well, schmear my bagel, if it isn't Mara Dyer. — Michelle Hodkin

You don't have to pick me up," I said in a rush.
"Considering you have no idea where we're going and I have no intention of telling you, I'm quite sure that I do."
"I can meet you somewhere centrally located."
Noah sounded amused. "I promise to press my trousers before meeting your family. I'll even bring flowers for the occasion."
"Oh, God. Please don't." I said. Maybe honesty is the best policy. "My family is going to screw with my life if you come over." I knew them far too well.
"Congratulations
you just made the prospect all the more enticing. What is your address? — Michelle Hodkin

Have you kissed many boys before?" he asked quietly.
His question brought my mind back into focus. I raised an eyebrow. "Boys? That's an assumption."
Noah laughed, the sound low and husky. "Girls, then?"
"No."
"Not many girls? Or not many boys?"
"Neither," I said. Let him make of that what he would.
"How many?"
"Why - "
"I am taking away that word. You are no longer allowed to use it. How many?"
My cheeks flushed, but my voice was steady as I answered. "One."
At this, Noah leaned in impossibly closer, the slender muscles in his forearm flexing as he bent his elbow to bring himself nearer to me, almost touching. I was heady with the proximity of him and grew legitimately concerned that my heart might explode. Maybe Noah wasn't asking. Maybe I didn't mind. I closed my eyes and felt Noah's five o' clock graze my jaw, and the faintest whisper of his lips at my ear.
"He was doing it wrong. — Michelle Hodkin

What time is it?'
'I don't know' Noah said, but his voice wasn't thick with sleep.
I drew back to look at him, 'Were you awake?'
He pretended to stretch. 'What? No.'
I rolled over onto my side and smiled. 'You totally were. You were watching me sleep.'
'No. That would be creepy. And boring. Watching you shower, perhaps ... — Michelle Hodkin

... and I so badly needed to self-destruct. — Michelle Hodkin

The freaks shall inherit the earth. — Michelle Hodkin

I'll be gentle," Noah added. My breath caught in my throat as he looked at me from beneath those lashes, ruining me.
"You're evil."
"And you're mine. — Michelle Hodkin