Demetrios Quotes & Sayings

Asshat's an asshole," she cooed. "Yes, he is. — Heather Demetrios

Look at this beautiful world! — Heather Demetrios

This, I think, is a little glimpse of what life could be like without my family. Home could be a place of laughter and love, a refuge. I'm filled with a terrifying weightlessness, like I've jumped off a cliff, but I know that if I don't look down, I'll be just fine. — Heather Demetrios

He smiled, and I made the mistake of looking into those eyes. They were epic. Blue blue blue. — Heather Demetrios

Why is it that some people in the world get to wake up in beautiful houses with fairly normal parents and enough food in the fridge while the rest of us have to get by on the scraps the universe throws at us? And we gobble them up, so grateful. What the hell are we grateful for? — Heather Demetrios

It was like the whole town was swimming in failure, but no one realized they were drowning. — Heather Demetrios

Oh my God. Sky." Dylan stared at me, incredulous. "What?" I clutched at my dress, certain there was a big-ass rip in back or something. I pushed against her arm. "What?" "You just said love." "No, I didn't," I said quickly. — Heather Demetrios

I bet there's air-conditioning in heaven," I said. "Maybe it's just the perfect temperature - low seventies with a breeze?" Josh said. — Heather Demetrios

She was the roar and the whisper and the stillness. She was nothing. She was everything. — Heather Demetrios

Hanging out with Josh was like learning how to drive stick. It was hard enough just to start and then it was one stall after another. But somehow I always managed to crawl forward, just a little bit. — Heather Demetrios

Kind of. Just - we don't know what happens when we die, right? I mean, maybe we go up to some perfect place in the sky, or maybe we turn to dust, or we're spirits and can still think and hear and go places. So talking to the person that's dead isn't crazy. They could be listening to you. Right? — Heather Demetrios

To have a point, to have a purpose, was its own kind of freedom. — Heather Demetrios

I grabbed the napkin wound around the silverware in front of me because paper was my lifeline and I needed to touch it, to know that maybe when I went home later, I could collage him and then it would all make sense, he would make sense. I hoped my fingers would remember the exact quality of the sunlight on his forehead, the shadows under his eyes. — Heather Demetrios

Somehow, the pain and rage and confusion of the past eighteen years dissolves until all that is left is this one perfect moment; unscripted, unedited, it's ours and ours alone. — Heather Demetrios

Away: that was the only command my body could respond to. Away Away Away. — Heather Demetrios

When you're a stupid girl in love, it's almost impossible to see the red flags. It's so easy to pretend they're not there, to pretend everything is perfect. — Heather Demetrios

His brown eyes filled with worry, and I wished, not for the first time, that my heart could love him in a different way. It would have been so easy. So nice. — Heather Demetrios

I will bury myself alive. I will cut my skin to shreds. I swear I will, I will. And I'll burn this fucking house down if it means I can cut you loose, be free, be without Gavin Davis. — Heather Demetrios

Did he realize how he was sometimes able to say the perfect thing? Because if he was trying to get in my pants, it was working. — Heather Demetrios

My eyes roved over the walls covered with my collages and prints of famous paintings. Magritte, Kandinsky, Kahlo. My origami shapes hung from fishing wire, dangling over my bed. They shivered in the slight breeze blowing through my open window. It was my own little escape pod, but none of it was enough tonight. — Heather Demetrios

I really wish that the boy I'm in love with hadn't slept with three-quarters of the Creek View population, I said. — Heather Demetrios

I love you to the moon and back - you read that in one of the picture books you brought to my house whenI was sick. It's becoming this thing with us. I melt. And you knew I would. You've got all these aces up your sleeve - a real card shark. — Heather Demetrios

Was this what it meant to grow up, to move on? — Heather Demetrios

With your lips on mine, your song still in my ears, I forget that I never said yes, that all of it - the dance, us - was a foregone conclusion. You told me to be your girlfriend. You didn't wait for me to answer about prom. I gave you my heart on a silver fucking platter and you ate it, piece by bloody piece. — Heather Demetrios

Sia's introspective, not depressing. There's a difference. — Heather Demetrios

You can't screw up your own suicide and then expect the universe to give you presents wrapped in the skin of a wonderful boy. That's just not the way it works. — Heather Demetrios

I've never been somewhere I belonged, but there are places where I think I could be happy. Like San Francisco. Well, do art museums count? Because I feel like I belong in them. — Heather Demetrios

I needed to hear her voice because everything was getting dark in me and she's the only light I've found since all this shit happened. I just thought, if she would answer, if she would answer, maybe I could, I don't know, just tell her in the right way why I was so messed up. — Heather Demetrios

The Josh I grew up around, with two legs and an ego that couldn't fit through the door? I didn't love him. I didn't even always like him." One corner of his mouth turned up. "This is who you are. The real you." I rested my forehead against his. "And I want you so fucking bad. — Heather Demetrios

Fourteen Kids, Two Dads, One Mom, Two Nannies, Two Tutors - and a Partridge in a Pear Tree. — Heather Demetrios

My life was being planned in sentences that started with 'We' instead of 'I', yet it felt like the most natural transition in the world. — Heather Demetrios

That's disgusting," he said. "It should be illegal to put Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and mint together." "Yes, because your combo of pineapple and Snickers is a real winner. — Heather Demetrios

My hands were sticky with glue, and I hummed along to Sia, playing in the background. — Heather Demetrios

When the store was empty again, I buried my head in my hands. I hadn't realized how much Josh had been helping me get through the summer until he wasn't there anymore. I wanted him to ask me how the Sky was. And then I wanted him to make it stop raining. — Heather Demetrios

I didn't want to go there, to those places he was describing, but I didn't want to be where he wasn't. — Heather Demetrios

It's not every day you get to watch the two people you care most about in the world fall in love. — Heather Demetrios

My movie tastes are more boy meets girl, girl falls in love with boy, and everything's happy at the end, I said. — Heather Demetrios

The past is past. You tried to kill yourself. So what? I humped a couch in season twelve. We all have our skeletons. — Heather Demetrios

Read it. Just - don't lose it. It ... belonged to a friend of mine. — Heather Demetrios

If I were a real Creek View girl, the kind Josh liked, I'd be hammered right now, not thinking about my dead father. — Heather Demetrios

We're together now, that's all that matters. — Heather Demetrios

I feel trapped in this car with you and for the first time since we've gotten together, I want to be somewhere you're not. — Heather Demetrios

And maybe some people are like collages - no matter how broken or useless we felt, we were an essential part of the whole. We mattered. — Heather Demetrios

This house is a prison, a suburban Alcatraz. — Heather Demetrios

I don't like seeing myself on camera." But that's not it
that sounds shallow, like I'm worried I'll look fat or something. "It's like somebody is walking on my grave. TV immortalizes you. The episodes are what my family would watch if I died. — Heather Demetrios

Everything I was doing was like this chess game - full of second guesses, indecision, waiting. — Heather Demetrios

I stood up. "You're going. With Billy. To Florida? — Heather Demetrios

She was a kept thing, shackled to a master who would never let her go, locked in a cage of dreams. — Heather Demetrios

He tasted like hope and healing. He tasted like the future. — Heather Demetrios

I thought of all the summer evenings I'd spent sitting in the chairs under the trees beside the trailer, reading books that helped me escape Creek View, at least for a little while. Magical kingdoms, Russian love triangles, and the March sisters couldn't have been further away from the trailer park. — Heather Demetrios

You know those primitive tribal people who believed a camera could steal your soul? Turns out they were right. — Heather Demetrios

He was the parts of the day where I smiled. — Heather Demetrios

Chris pointed to himself. "This is my Not-Convinced face." "This is my Shut-Up face." "This is my Oh-My-God-Sky-Is-Getting-It-On-With-Josh-Mitchell face," Dylan said, looking comically scandalized. — Heather Demetrios

Crap. Like I could just go out and buy a new one - Look at me, I'm so rich I can throw calculators around! I stood and picked it up, shook it. Still worked. — Heather Demetrios

I grabbed them and walked up to the glass door. He turned around, realizing his mistake, and I held them up. He shook his fist at the sky and started walking back, but I pulled open the door and ran out. — Heather Demetrios

I line my pills up in formation, like they're about to be inspected. It's time for roll call, motherfuckers: Zoloft for depression (Here!), Abilify for depression (Here!), Klonopin for anxiety (Here!), Oleptro and Lunesta for sleep (Here! Here!), Neurontin for phantom limb pain (Here!), ibuprofen for TBI headaches (Here!). If I stare at the pills long enough, they start floating like tiny stars in the sky. — Heather Demetrios

But I knew it was too much to wish that Creek View would be wiped off the face of the earth forever. The other towns needed us: you can't have the light without the dark, right? Maybe our darkness was necessary for other people to see their light. — Heather Demetrios

He frowned, his voice softer. "I don't know if it's Josh or what, but you need to get the hell out, or I swear to God, you'll end up spending the rest of your life in this shithole, just like all those girls - " "You mean like me?" Dylan asked, her voice suddenly hard. — Heather Demetrios

If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you be?" I opened my mouth to say San Francisco or maybe Madrid - somewhere exotic. But what came out was, "Here. Right here. — Heather Demetrios

All of the jinn had refused to manifest a mattress for him, but the skag lay on the stone floor as though it were a king's bed. — Heather Demetrios

When had Chris and Dylan stopped being enough? — Heather Demetrios

I'm the girl who's desperate to get out of her small town because if she doesn't she knows she'll die. She knows her soul will start to rot, like fruit gone bad. — Heather Demetrios

After graduation, we can just ... ride into the sunrise," he says. "The sunrise?" His lips twitch. "If we ride into the sunset, we'd wind up in the middle of the Pacific. — Heather Demetrios

But my life had suddenly become a Taylor Swift song: breakups and heartache and other girls. — Heather Demetrios

Might as well," she spit. "You know what it feels like, being friends with you guys? Do you have any idea how it sounds when you talk about how crappy this town is and how you'd rather die than end up saddled with a baby, living in a trailer park, broke as hell? Every time you say that, you're describing my life. A life I'm actually okay with - I'm sure as hell a lot happier than either of you. — Heather Demetrios

What am I supposed to do when I'm bad for the one good thing in my life? — Heather Demetrios

Everything - the moon, the fireworks, the fields - had an otherworldly beauty, and I shivered, greedy for these bits of loveliness the universe was throwing our way tonight. — Heather Demetrios

I'm tired. Like I-want-to-sleep-forever tired. — Heather Demetrios

I'm going to kill you, Calar. And it will hurt like hell. And then I will take that crown and put it on my head. Time's up, bitch.

It was something Malek would have said and it made her smile, pleased at the little bit of bad in her. — Heather Demetrios

Sometimes it was hard to breathe, knowing how small my world could be. Maybe in San Francisco it wouldn't feel like the universe was conspiring to keep me in a bubble. — Heather Demetrios

I know you don't like me," Kes said to her. "And, frankly, I don't like you. But please do me the service of shutting the fuck up. I'm doing the best I can. — Heather Demetrios

Here I went again, asking him out. But it felt like I didn't have any control. With him, I never knew what the hell I was gonna say or do. — Heather Demetrios

How could someone hurt you so bad but you still wanted to hold him and tell him it was going to be okay? — Heather Demetrios

He doesn't know either." She stopped and faced me. "Have you ever thought that maybe you're helping him figure that out? — Heather Demetrios

I raised my cup. "To Blake Mitchell - no, never mind. To me. — Heather Demetrios

Gavin's a nice kid, but I'll tell you somthing: a guy like him - the kind who wants you to follow him around like a puppy dog - they're the ones you have to watch out for. — Heather Demetrios

He looks like the kind of boy who would jump trains, strum guitars, and pass a joint. — Heather Demetrios

He'd play dirty, break the rules - he didn't care. He wanted to stay in the game and this was the only way he knew how. — Heather Demetrios

Chess and you taking a picture of me reading Slaughterhouse-Five, telling me I'd need proof someday because nobody in Creek View would ever believe I had actually read a goddamn book, let alone five. Talking about God and why there's evil in the world and bitching because the Steelers won the Super Bowl. Camp Leatherneck, me not missing home at all and you missing it like crazy, always talking about going to college and how when you had leave you were gonna marry Hannah. And you wanted kids, and I said I didn't because people like me, we just end up disappointing one another and I'd probably be like my dad, and you told me I had to get over it, get over my dad and my mom and how screwed up everything is because you said, Josh, you're gonna have it all. I know it. You're gonna have it all. And for the first time, I'm almost believing that. — Heather Demetrios

Hate is a lot like love. It's warm and fills you up until every part of you is tingling to release it. — Heather Demetrios

I tried not to read anything into his being there; things like this weren't serendipitous when you lived in the smallest town ever. — Heather Demetrios

Sex.

It's the last thing I want, but how could I possibly say that to my boyfriend who I've been with for almost a year? — Heather Demetrios

How was I going to get through life without Chris and Dylan right there, whenever I needed them? — Heather Demetrios

I'm starting to realize that she's my only real friend in the world right now. I can't lose that. I've tried so hard to play it safe with her, and I thought I was doing okay until I went all wounded warrior on her and ... fuck. — Heather Demetrios

She is a slave, with no way home. — Heather Demetrios

I didn't know there were so many ways to say I love you. — Heather Demetrios

Fuck you for saying the perfect thing, Gavin. — Heather Demetrios

This night felt like a last hurrah, like we could blaze our brightest, at the apex of our insane adolescence. This was our Mardi Gras before the dark days of Lent. — Heather Demetrios

Maybe all those years when Josh was running around town, acting like an idiot, he was just trying to find a way to escape. Maybe that was what all of us were doing, in our different ways. — Heather Demetrios

I had to tell him we were like a collage. Pieces that could be put back together in a new way, a better way. If I didn't say it now, I never would. — Heather Demetrios

Can't we just go in a dark corner like normal people who need to hide from highly trained evil killers?" she said.
"What, and let everyone imagine all the delightful things two jinn can do in the dark?"
"You're unbelievable."
"Thank you. — Heather Demetrios

After a lifetime of wanting to be loved, she didn't think she could bear it if it finally happened just before she was about to die. — Heather Demetrios

I don't really know what it means to move on, but lately, with Sky, I'm starting to feel like I want to because when I look at her, I don't see you or the war or any of the shit in my head. I just see her, and it's like suddenly I can breathe again after holding my breath for so long. — Heather Demetrios

Even Mom doesn't understand how being in front of a camera all the time twists and warps you. How one second it makes you feel unbelievably alive and the next publicly strips you down until all that's left is one big question mark. — Heather Demetrios

The moon's not big enough to wish on. Nothing is. — Heather Demetrios

He looked down for a minute, and it was as if there was this huge mountain between us, and I hated that after everything we'd been through this summer, we'd have to admit that it was impossible. We were impossible. — Heather Demetrios

Last words are a kindness and I am not feeling kind. — Heather Demetrios

Sometimes I wondered if I'd ever find something to fill those places inside me that never stopped wanting. — Heather Demetrios

Skylar's obviously into that Chris dude, I saw them in his sorry excuse for a truck, should have totaled it when I had the chance, — Heather Demetrios

You knew that if you survived that accident, there's no way I could ever leave you again. Not unless I want your blood on my hands. You're lucky your gamble paid off. Now you can do or say whatever you want, can't you. You've got me right where you've always wanted me.

You win. — Heather Demetrios